A touch of Soul (Getting Away, Pt2)

here we are at the end

john walks up and opens the door, as his mothers opens it . She sees right through his poker face , the anger in his eyes, the thirst in his blood. in fact its the same look in his eyes that Travis had when she was hurt by her ex derrick.

that thirst doesn't go away and doesn't hide to well especially when its the only thing they are targeted on.

John walks into his fathers house where they are at the dinner table eating. and just talking to one another, of how they met and history of Dawn and Travis.

They all go and sit down, Dawn fixes her son a plate of food, he wasn't even hungry or care to even look at his food, the liquor in his belly just slashing around bubbling with anger and regret as he burst out loud.

Dad I have a question, at which I never thought I would have to say in front of my mother, at which that is hard and weird to say at the same time.... since I never got the chance to even really meet her or get to know her , only from what you are telling me and the pictures and so on.

ANYWHO.. how did u get over mom? you know after her.... death and missing her and so on?

Travis's eyes widen well son , lemme start with this, it wasn't easy, everything I did, seen or even was around , the people , the I'm sorry , every thing reminded me of her. There's no easy way to over come it.

drinking don't help . running away doesn't help. being with woman after woman doesn't help. it jut all goes back to feeling again, making you think your cheating over n over, like she was waiting at home, waiting for her to text or call you :where are you, when you going to be home, dinners ready< her bringing you food at work.

and once you think you got it all figured out there is something right there nipping at your ass telling you . " I'm sorry , this is incorrect , try again later" " why do you hate her so much to do this to her" " why must you try to replace her so quick and so fast"? to what , try and cover n mask the pain that you truly are feeling. yeah that doesn't help or fix anything, you know son .. I tried dating multiple people at once even. I even tried drinking my sorrows away . till I was shit ace drunk, with liquor poisonings, even tried drugs once or twice .

because you know why? bc I never really faced the pain and torture and grieving my body needed to go through to release her soul from me. I mean hell to this day I sometimes ever call my wife her name, she doesn't get mad at me , because she understands that. and nothing could ever fix the pain that I still feel . and as weird as it sounds son, I FELT like home when I saw her face . I wanted to pick her up , hug her kiss her, I wanted to cores her face. but I didn't . because I love my wife and that's all that was needed. because without this woman to be here for me , I would of probably died. killed myself just to be with your mother again.

then you would've been fatherless and you wouldn't of even became the man you was today, and that saddens because I missed so much just to deal with myself, for the longest I couldn't even look at you, because you looks so much like your mother, your attitude , you look's, the independence that you have.

all I'm going to say is , murder, suicide is not the answer , when they say " it takes time" " time heals everything"

it is true. hell you never know if you'll ever get that chance to love like that again, I know yall had a great connection, just like your mom and I , I know because I felt it, I bet your mom felt every heart break you went through, she fell harder for her more than you ever thought you did, because you are her son. and a mothers love last forever, even when they die.

Dawn raises her hand slowly, waiting to speak.

can I tell you something son? now don't take this the wrong way, I felt your pain, I even still do , how you think I knew you was at the door , how you think I knew what to say, when your heart hurts , mine does to, you never know what I knew when I went to heaven, I don't quite remember I don't know if that's how it is when you leave, they wipe your memory, but I do know if I was alive, it would've been the same life I would be living on my heaven on earth, with your father on our range, loving life, seeing ghost and dealing with a whole bunch of bullshit, but you want to know how we met?

John give a half ass smile as a response with a long as sigh. yes momma I do, because I don't think dad tells it right, he chuckles.

dawn smiles

well you see my sweet baby boy, it was on a drunk night, don't ask me what the hell I was about, could've been a death, could've been a girls night out, could've been just me, who the hell knows, it was a lifetime ago, literally.

but I woke up in the woods, with some horrible creature after me. to this day nobody knows, because only I could freaking see it, which made every one think I was fucking crazy, cops didn't believe me, or even my family, you know who believed in my powers , your dad, you wanna know why, because he loved me and his dumbass saw it to, and wouldn't let it get me, like the big bad wolf, she laughed.

and ever since then we was inseparable and he wouldn't leave me alone... OH! OH! did you know your dad was married before me? hmmm? I bet you didn't. if I remember correctly, she died to , but from natural causes . well just like me , huh? she laughs .

so I think your dad know pain son. if any body does.