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I grab my drink and walk back to the table where Dustin was. He was tapping on his phone, it looked like he was playing a game...honestly his screen was really dark. I sat down and poked my straw into the cup and looked at him.
" Are you ready to talk now.? " I looked at him crazy, and he slouched down in the seat and put his hands in his pockets. " Nessa...we haven't texted or facetimed like we usually do. What is going on..? Am I being to clingy because I can give you that friendship space.? "
I smile at his last suggestion and I take a deep breath, like Asia said. I could get my feelings hurt or get my time wasted, if we're being honest neither of those options sound fun. So it's now or later I guess..
" Dustin what is this...? Like what am I to you..? " he looks taken back, and he immediately sits up.
" What are you talking about? I told you that I think you are beautiful and that I like you. So what are you confused about..? " I open my mouth to talk but of course there was nothing coming out. " Wait...you think that I'm just trying to play with your feelings?
" No it's just that... this isn't normal ok! A white boy with a black girl, who's also fat, that's not common Dustin. "
" I keep telling you that I don't care about your wei- "
" Ok but I do! You're just so nice and sweet to me...you compliment me all the tine, you're a gentleman, but then I think back and I've had that before..except he only wanted sex from me. He called me fat and ugly and all type of mean ass names. So that's why..I act different or I switch up. Why let you hurt me first when I can hurt you..? " at this point, I didn't even know I was going in. Thankfully we sat outside and nobody was there, because this would've been more embarrassing that it already is.
The look on his face just made me even more sad, he is so hard to read. One moment his eyes were filled with sadness but then they would switch to anger. I really just told a boy, who I met last week most of the baggage that I have. Dustin has been the only boy this far who has made me feel like I'm the only girl, but I can't go through another heartbreak like I did before.
" Vanessa, I can't take away what that asshole did and said to you..but what I can do is show you how you deserve to be treated. I would never hurt you, I know how a heartbreak feels..so I would never put somebody through that. When I say the things I say..I mean it! " He leans across the table and rubs my arm. Like what I said earlier, he makes me feel like I'm in a movie. " So fuck everybody's opinion about you...I think you are a beautiful women, I like you so much. You coming to get my number the next day was the best thing to happen to me! "
