LOVE OR HOPE?

Chapter Fifteen

TRACEY'S POV:

"How do you confess your Feelings to a guy you like?" I asked Diane who was busy humming and chopping onions in the kitchen.

I rested my back on the kitchen cabinet and looked at her but she was deeply lost in her own world.

"Diane?" I raise my voice a little higher.

" Hm?" She faced me. " What?" She furrowed her eyebrows.

" I asked a question." I hated the fact that I was going to repeat my embarrassing question.

"Sorry. I thought you were probably reading through your phone or on a call or something" She shrugged. " What do you need?" She dropped the knife and dusted invisible dirt's from her apron.

"Okay,I said-" I sighed.

"Said what?" She folded her arms. "Spill. Your parents are coming tonight. Got to cook dinner."

"How do you confess your feelings to a guy?"

She smiled. " What kind of feelings? Love or Hatred?" She teased,trying to play dumb with me. I was irritated.

" You can text him or call him or actually tell him."

" Well I know that Obviously" I rolled my eyes. "I was just thinking that there'll be something more to it." I sighed again.

"I know it's Norman though." Her eyes were beginning to get teary from the onions she had chopped earlier, she opened the tap to wash her hands.

"What the-?" I stated indifferently.

"I see how you stare at him" She blinked profusely,I went mute till she was finally able to see clearly.

"I'm just going to text him" I said,walking away. I was enough distraction already.

I packed my hair into a pony tail and went out barefoot to sit in front of the pool. I dipped my legs into the water and I felt the strange confidence that I needed to do this shit once and for all,I took my phone out of my shorts and texted Norman.

Now we just wait..

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I have never been this nervous in my whole life!

I removed my keys and dropped it into my bag with trembling hands,closed the car and started heading towards the school.

On a second thought..

I rushed back to where my car was packed,I brought out my make up kit and applied more concealer to the already applied one,I added more red lipstick. God,I was fucking nervous! What the hell have I done? Maybe I really shouldn't have told him,Maybe I should have had a little more patience? But it was more than two weeks already,He would have been over all of that.

He would be pleased that you like him! My inner voice literally screamed at me and I smiled at that. I got down for the second time and walked into the school.

Everyone immediately looked at my direction and though,I liked attention but I was annoyed at the one I was getting. They were mummuring about something I just couldn't understand,the Cheerleaders rolled their eyes at me and hissed and some of my classmates just kept laughing.

Okay,What the fuck is going on here?

I tried to look for my friends but the bell rang for my class which was different from the ones Mia and Alyssa had.

*meet me in the restroom after this period* 
I texted to my friends with my fingers still trembling,I also tried to look around for Norman but he was nowhere in sight.

I walked into the class with more childish laughters behind me.

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"What happened? Do you see the way everyone is staring at me?" I asked immediately they came in, locking the door behind me.

Alyssa looked so tired,but jeez,I'd rather talk about that later. Right now,I need to know what the hell has gone wrong in my life!

"You need to calm down,okay?" Mia came closer to me and held my hands.

" Does anyone know what happened?" I asked,my heart was skipping every beat that was needed to be alive.

Alyssa slowly brought out her phone and handed it over to me.

And that was when I saw what was going to make me feel ashamed for the rest of my senior year.

I saw the screenshot of the texts I sent to Norman,I admit that I had sounded so desperate.

*Hey Norman*

*I don't know how to say this lol!*

*I might sound really weird.*

*But I'm in love with you.*

*I know it sounds clichè but I've been stalking you for three years non stop.*

*Plus,there's no game called Three Questions! I only did that to let you know how Alyssa feels about you and because I wanted you to hear me out and get over her!*

*Please reply me,I'll be fine no matter what you say or do,Norman. Xo!*

I was numb. I stood there speechlessly for a minute,my brain seemed to have suddenly stopped working and my mouth was unable to bring out a word.

Norman had sent the screenshot of my messages as a broadcast message to literally the whole school,I felt so stupid.

"I warned you" Mia spoke quietly.

I was so ashamed that I didn't know what could have been the right thing to say to my friends anyways.

I walked out slowly out of the restroom and they followed me in sympathy.

"I hope you are fine with whatever I've said and done!" The deep voice called from behind me,I turned to face Norman who was laughing with Kyle and three other guys from the basketball team.

"You've gone way too far,Norman!" Mia yelled.

Norman laughed louder " Gone too far,you say?" He folded his arms and moved closer till he was just a inch distant from Mia. "I'm teaching her never to mess with me nor my bestfriend!"

"Oh. So this is planned? Kyle? You had a hand in this too?" Mia squinted mysteriously.

Kyle shrugged and glared at me. "This was how it felt when you said I was a waste of time!"

Damn! I face palmed my face. This was way too much for me.

Norman patted Kyle and they walked away.

"Tracey-" Alyssa tried to call me but I was already walking aimlessly and deafly.

I wanted to punch the walls with my weak hands and cry till my eyes wear out.

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