LOVE OR HOPE?

Chapter Twelve

HAROLD'S POV:

Watching TV has never been so boring. Nothing interesting ever happens in my life except when my mum calls and I have fun in making her feel guilty, making her feel the anger I felt when I knew I had a mother and the reasons why she had abandoned me.

I should be in college with the other kids, going to classes, writing exams and enjoying the best of life at the fucking parties but I didn't want to. I wasn't interested in going to the University. I wanted a reason to be a pain in the ass to my mother and to fustrate her. I needed her to be attentive to me but she just never got the message.

Who cares anyways?

I grabbed a chilled coke and climbed upstairs to take a nap. I checked the mirror again and noticed that my nose was now back to being perfect, I shuffled my hair and realized how much I missed my hair being green. I need to redye this shit.

I went closer to the windows to let the morning breeze blow through my face and take me to Wonder fucking Land. It was there I stopped after looking down and seeing Alyssa in front of her house. She was wrapping herself with blankets and it wasn't even cold at all.

"Hi" Mia called from Tracey's car at the same time I got down from mine. I was about walking into the house.

I went closer to the car and said "Hey."

"Thanks for taking Alyssa home. She must have been really pissed off."

" I doubt. She looked confused but not pissed off."

" She hasn't been in school for three days" red-lipstick finally spoke. I wondered if I would ever get to know what her natural lips looked like. But why do I really give a fuck about that anyways?, must look as shitty as her pride.

"Well-" I dipped my hands into my pocket and pointed to her house. "You are almost there anyways so-" I shrugged. This was beginning to bore me.

" She's probably sick. Have you seen her around?" Mia asked.

Could they just leave already? Was I supposed to be her stalker or something?

"No. See you around girls." I blurted,I was just coming back from the park which was another date with Nancy,the red head girl. Everything about her gave me an headache and her laughter makes me want to throw up. I already cut off ties with her today and I really hope we never get to see each other again. All the drama I have had today was getting me fustrated.

"Bye then" They drove off and I have honestly never been more fucking relieved than this.

I was about to close up the windows when she looked up at me. I could have fucking sworn that my heart skipped a beat,I was numb and I didn't know what to do for a few seconds,I couldn't bring myself to smile so I brought out my hand slowly and waved,She sadly nodded at me.

She looked so pale. Had she been crying? Why?

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I honestly don't know how it fucking happened. I can't exactly tell the time I went to my drawers,wore my earrings,put on a green t-shirt and headed towards Alyssa's house.

All I know is that I'm fucking here right now sitting with Alyssa and we are outside her veranda. Her face was filled with so much pity that even the mean side of me could not withstand it.

"Don't you want to remove the blankets?"

"No"

"It's not cold at all."

"But I feel cold." She kept looking down.

I tried to feel her temperature though I knew no fucking thing about it and she glared at me deadly,her pale eyes were swiftly portrayed to anger.

I flailed my hands in surrender. "Jeez,sorry,didn't mean to awaken the dead in you."

She looked down again as if she was counting some precious marbles that I couldn't see. There was an awkward silence before she finally spoke up.

"I'm sorry" her voice cracked along the way and her eyes clouded with tears.

" You don't need to be. Are you okay? Is it just the sickness or something else is bothering you?" I have never been this fucking concerned about someone in my whole life. She still looked so pretty with her sick look but  I knew that I would be better off dead if I told her that at this moment.

There was silence again.

"Goddamit Alyssa!" I blurted. "Let me help you."

"You can't."

"Teach me how"

She looked up at me and bit her lips tightly. God, she was so fucking beautiful! I was so tempted to brush the tears off her eyes and the strands of her curly hair that was messing around on her forehead.

"You are in senior year yeah?"

She nodded.

" You need to go to school. There are so many crappy processes that you need to make and you need these classes for your exams."

She nodded again.

"Are you using medicines?"

She nodded,I wished she would talk.

" If there's something else bothering-" I was lost of words when she rested her head on my shoulder. My brain literally stopped thinking and time only seemed to evolve around us. I was taken aback cause this was the same Alyssa that would never let me touch her for a million dollars.

I didn't know what to do. I tried to hold her hands and I was even more surprised that she didn't let it go.

"It's okay. Everything is going to be fine."

Maybe I shouldn't have said this because she removed her hand from mine and breathed in deeply.

"Thank you." Well phew, at least she said something.

I looked around and studied every house that was in sight,Everywhere seemed to be more beautiful with a girl on your shoulders as if it was only you in the world that mattered to her,as if she was depending on you to live.

I looked down and saw that her eyes were tightly shut. I bent my head nervously and kissed her wild hair.

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