Charlie's

Chapter 49

BPOV

Chapter 49

BPOV

Three days…that's how long it's been, three days since I took the life of someone the hurt me so callously in a way I didn't think I could ever, even in my dreams.

I'm not really sure what happened to be honest, I think I've lost it, I don't know what came over me, even to me once my mind cleared slightly as we were leaving the room I took one last look at Jacob as Edward pulled me from the room and I couldn't believe my eyes the total destruction I'd caused, the mess I'd made.

Jacobs insides were laying on the floor in a pile of blood while he was slumped forward in his chair, a gapping hold in his stomach…I did that, I let myself go and I caused this mess.

My revenge knew no bounds and now someone else was gonna have to clean up my mess, at the time I tried to pull away from Edward, to help clean up, It was only fair, I couldn't let anyone else do it. Of course he wouldn't let me.

As soon as he pulled me to his office I ran to his trash can and puked everything my stomach was holding. Coughing and spluttering as tears and snot ran down my face, I finally let go and sobbed right there on the floor as if I was the only one in the room.

What had I done? How could I have lost it that much, I mean I was there I know what I'd done but it was like I was possessed. I was watching from the corner of my mind while my body moved on its own, and I know I'm an evil bitch and I have been for years but I think I've taken it a bit far this time even for me…I was actually disgusted with myself.

Edward didn't say a word, he just picked me up off the floor wiped my face with a paper towel and pulled me into his lap and held me as tight as he possibly could while I fell apart in his arms.

That was three days ago…and I've been in bed since, I haven't moved, washed and eaten as little as possible. To be honest I felt kind of dead inside, empty and numb…Like I was here but no one was home, I felt like I'd lost my baby all over again and there was nothing to make these feelings go away.

Although Edward tried his best, he brought me food and tried to force me into the bathroom and clean up, I just didn't have the energy to do it, I still felt queasy like my stomach was gonna turn inside out at the slightest moment.

As I lay there staring out the window at the Seattle skyline, normally I'm impressed by the sight, because from the penthouse you can practically see everything but now it was like looking into nothing, I was trying to imagine all those people out there getting on with their lives oblivious to how mine was falling apart.

The door creaked open, I knew it was Edward but I didn't move my eyes from the direction they were looking at, I carried on staring into nothing as I felt him walk around the room and perch himself on the side of the bed.

"Princess?" He whispered, I could hear the anguish in his tone but he was talking like the glass in the windows would shatter at the slightest sound.

Moving my eyes to his for just a second, he looked worn out, bags under his eyes, hair standing in every direction, shoulders slightly slumped forward, but it was the pain in his eyes that made me feel guilty because I knew I'd put it there, my eyes filled with tears for the first time since I left his office at the club and shrugged my shoulders at him as if to say I don't know what you want me to do.

Silent tears rolled down my cheeks, I didn't even know what to say to him, but it didn't matter. He climbed over me and pulled me into him arms and held me as if his life depended on it.

"It's OK princess, It's OK" He whispered in relief again and again as he rocked me back and forth.

"What did I do Edward" I rasped out into a sob it sounded like I hadn't spoken in weeks instead of days.