Charlie's

Chapter 43

EPOV

Flying back to Seattle was quiet for me..I was left to think about what Bella has said...and I didn't fucking like it.

I could see where she was coming from, I did exactly what she said I did. I let all that bull shit that Jasper said plant a seed in my head, even though deep down I knew I could fucking trust her...I seriously don't know what the fuck happened that night.

When I got to her dad's place, I was pissed she didn't even lock the fucking door. I mean especially with all the shit happening with Aro. What the fuck was she playing at? Did she not realise that if I could find her..then so could he? That was a big part of the reason I didn't want her to stay here even if I understood her reasons. I wanted to throw her over my fucking shoulder and demand that she come home. What would happen if he knew where she was and I wasn't here? I'd already-made arrangements for 3 extra guys to come down, she'd stand a better chance with 5 guys all in all. But that didn't mean I was happy about leaving her here.

Like I said I understood her reasons, We'd met...and there was always one thing happening after another. We haven't had anytime just to be us.

I don't even know what her favorite color is. Fuck I don't know any of her favorites like food, book or movie is.

Can you really and truly love someone that you don't really know all those things about? My heart tells me yes because that exactly what I feel, it was all-consuming and I ached to be with her all the time.

Fuck the next few weeks is gonna be really tough on me.

Worse than that...I knew it was gonna be just as hard if not worse for Bella. One..she was on her own, and two..she was gonna go through all her fathers things. I was shocked when she said she hadn't been there since he died..maybe going through his things..she'll get some answers to the questions I know she has been asking herself.

After sitting here going over why she ran from me...I didn't know whether to be happy she didn't run because I hurt or deeply fucking saddened for the actual reason. Actually wanted to shoot myself, I mean..I can't believe she actually thought I was gonna drag her back to the club and kill her. But like she said, I'd killed people for a lot less and she was right. It was logical that she was gonna think that way...but my Bella was different from them. She was...no she is mine, and I fucking love her.

What really made me feel like shit, was that she wasn't upset that I fucked up and took it out on her, but because she thought I didn't trust her.

Like I said I could understand why she would think that, by the way I acted it was bound to come across like that...but I did.

I deserved more than a punch in the eye, even tho that fucking bad boy was gonna bruise like hell, it was a mark I was proud to wear. Only Bella I knew the meaning and for the next few day it'd remind me of my fuck up every time I looked in the mirror.

It was time to pull my head out my ass and really make an effort if I wanted to keep her. I need to prove to her that I trusted her. I wasn't sure how to do that yet...but I would. I was gonna do everything in my power to get my girl back...even if it killed me, she was mine.. and I wasn't going to give her up...ever.

Coming into Seattle, I decided to go to the club and have a little fun with Black and James. I wouldn't kill them cos I promised Bella she could play with me and that thought had me excited a bit it and more than a little turned on.

But I could start and pass the time fucking with their heads until she got here.

/CHARLIE'S\