For a Moment at Least (Age Gap)

Chapter 11

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Chapter 11

"Deacon you can't just force me into a life I don't want." I raised my voice. I was shaking, my heart thumping out of my chest. My mind jumped to multiple scenarios of me escaping from Deacons forceful ways. I could run, I could go to the police and tell them everything. Would I just look crazy? Would they believe me  and take it to the extremes, invading Deacons pack and all the rest that hide among us? Would Rachel lose her mate?

"Ellis, I've been looking for you for over 100 years. I can't just let you give up." he responded. I laughed at his attempt to find reason within his feelings.

"It's different for you Deacon! You were born a Lycan, you knew exactly how your life was going to pan out. You prepared and worked for it." my voice was exasperated and weak. His eyes averted to his plate. He knew he was being selfish but he didn't care.

"I will always be honest with you Ellis. So I'm telling you truthfully that I will not let you reject me." His gaze was soft and sorrowful. I glanced down at my hands. Fiddling with my fingernails. I understood his eagerness to be with me and start the life he's been waiting for, but I can't help but think about my time before him. The times I stayed up all night studying, and working on my article. The time and effort I put in, exposing myself to the nature and talking to everyone I could about how they experienced nature, wether it be hiking, snowboarding, fishing or biking. I loved every second of it. I craved more of it. But did I crave it more than I craved him?

"You don't feel it like I do Ell." He whispered. I couldn't help but shiver at the sound of my nickname rolling off his tongue.

"Feel what?" I asked, breaking my stare way from my fiddling hands. I watched as Deacon took a deep breath.

"Our bond, you're human. You'll never understand how I feel Ellis." he whispered. I couldn't imagine having a stronger pull than what I felt right now. "It takes everything inside me not to take you right here, right now, on this table. To force you into my bed at night just so I know you're safe. Everytime I hear about you talking to, or touching another male, it angers me. You are mine, only mine. You belong with me." his voice was low and harsh.

I held his gaze as I watched his eyes darken, slowly flipping to that frightening bright yellow. I couldn't believe the words leaving his mouth. In any normal situation this would have been alarming. But I understood him, he felt what I was feeling, just more intensely.

"Hearing about me?" I questioned him. Has he been watching me? His eyes switched back to their normal light brown. "Have you been watching me?" my stare hardened towards him. He ran his hand through his dark hair.

"That's not important." His response was as dead as his stare. I pondered the idea of him having me watched. I didn't like it at all. I deserved my privacy.

"Deacon I would want to travel, to write, and to work somewhere other than your pack." I confessed. If he couldn't let me live my life around town without being watched, there was no way in hell he would allow me to live the life I wanted around the world.

"I know. You have made that very clear. I am giving you the summer to decide what you want. In that time I will try to come to terms with the thought of life without you." He responded. I was appreciative of his trying to understand. Even though most would have expected it.

"I'll get to know you Deacon. I'll learn about you and your pack. I'll be as open as I can. But I can't promise anything." I replied. He stood from his chair, sliding his large hands under my arms and pulling me up. I tensed and trembled under him. He lifted me off the ground until my face was level with his. "That's all I'll ask of you for now." He whispered. His strong grasp lit my body on fire. I'll never get used to this feeling.