𝐣𝐣 𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬

𝘼𝙡𝙤𝙣𝙚 | 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙤𝙣𝙚 ❣︎

[song request - chase Atlantic • swim ☁️]

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inspired by a post on Tumblr :)

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[Warning: mentions of self-harm and alcohol]

your head was pounding as your eyes started to get heavier and heavier by every second passing by. As you down another chug of your parent's liquor, you couldn't help but wonder why you were like this. I mean, you haven't talked to your friends in weeks and your family? you hardly speak to them. they don't give a shit about you. Honestly, if you died they would live out their lives normally. which fucked you up. Parents were supposed to be there right? they were supposed to love you and care for you. but they didn't, and that's why you were having another bottle of alcohol, your eyes red from the blunt you smoked previously. your eyes glued to the ceiling.

you feel yourself drifting before the loud ring of your cellphone could be heard.
JJ. your boyfriend, and the one guy who actually cares about you. You haven't talked to him in weeks, neither have you talked to the other pouges.

You were scared of what his reaction would be when you answered. I mean, you are his girlfriend. would he be mad? when JJ is mad he does dangerous shit, like that time he pulled out a gun and placed it on a kook- never mind.

you decide to answer it anyway, saying a simple hello.
"Y/N, babe are you alright?"

you pause while looking at your arms full of scars. are you alright?
"Y/N? hello?" you could hear the concern arise invoice.
"mhm?"
"are you alright?"
"better than ever"
"well alright um. me Pope, Kiara, Sarah, and John B. are all going out for a late drive on the HMS pouge, down to join?"
"thank you, but I'm good where I am"
"you sure?"
"Yeah I'm sure" you mumble.
"Alright, fine whatever," JJ says. you can hear the sudden anger in his voice as he hangs up.
you sigh, before placing your phone on your chest, taking another hit or two on your cigarette.

*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:

you hear a pebble gets thrown against your bedroom window. "what the fuck?" you say, looking down at your lawn.
It was JJ, his blonde hair thrown messily onto his head as he motions you to unlock your front door.

you immediately unlock the front door, an angry JJ burst into the house.
"you think you can ignore me for three fucking weeks, huh Y/N. three fucking weeks."
"This is why I ignored you JJ, you always fucking do this shit!" you say, anger arising in both you and JJ's voice.
"oh, I'm sorry I'm being a good boyfriend. I shouldn't even be concerned for you. my bad, ignore me for three more fucking weeks" JJ said, tugging at his blonde hair.

"fuck you" you mumbled. "What?" JJ says.
"Fuck you" you shout. locking yourself up in your bathroom.
"Y/N, open the goddamn door" JJ says, banging on the door.

you ignore him for the first few times. a few tears leave your eyes, before bringing your knees for your face.

"Y/N, please. I just want to talk, okay? I won't yell anymore" JJ says, in a soft-spoken tone.
you unlock the door, JJ immediately wrapping his arms around your waist. You were silent for a few minutes, just enjoying each other's embrace.
"just, just promise me you won't keep pushing me away," he mumbles, his face buried in the crook of your neck.
"I promise JJ, I promise," you say, playing with his incredibly soft hair.

you both drifted off in each other's embrace, cuddling on the bathroom floor.

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WC: 630 words.
I hoped you enjoyed the first image of this book!

I love you all 💝

- Aaliyah