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(I love you - Billie Eilish)
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Your eyes filled with tears as JJ sobs in your chest, pulling you closer and closer. ''Everything is going to be okay, J. Just give it some time'' You say, reassuringly.
''You don't understand, Y/N. You don't fucking understand'' JJ snaps, holding onto you tightly.
You rarely see J like this. He wasn't the emotional type. The type to ever let his emotions loose, but when he was, fuck you cried with him. ''I really fucking loved her, Y/N'' JJ sobs, resting his head onto your lap, tears shedding more and more. ''I know you did, JJ.'' You said, your hands playing with his blonde locks. ''She doesn't deserve you, your a wonderful man.'' You quietly sob, tears running down your cheeks.''My life is so fucked up'' JJ yells, punching the wall beside him. ''No one fucking loves me''
''I love you, JJ. So does Kiara, Pope, Sarah, John B. We all love you''
''My dad fucking hates me, my girlfriend does. What did I do wrong, Y/N? What did I do for my life to result in complete shit.''
''You did nothing-''
''Yes, I fucking did. I'm sick of getting hurt, Y/N. I'm sick of getting tossed around like I'm nothing. I'm sick of getting bruises every fucking time I come home. I'm just so fucking tired!''
Tears slide down your cheeks. You engulfed JJ in a hug, crying in his shoulder. He did nothing. People treat him like absolute garbage. You were sick and tired of it. You and JJ have been inseparable since diapers. Your dad and Luke, JJ's dad, were best friends, they hang out together every Sunday, watching the newest ravens game.
Everything changed once your dad died when you were just thirteen and JJ's mom died once he hit kindergarten. Your mom turned into a raging alcoholic, and she's never really around. The same happened with JJ's dad. So, both you and JJ grew up as each other's parent figure. You were each other's counselor, chef, nurse.
But fuck, you hated seeing each other hurt. You went through everything together. You were there for everything. His first kiss, his first fight, his first girlfriend. Now his first-ever breakup.
You knew JJ fucking loved his girlfriend. He would brag about her, he would plan his proposal, he would plan his engagement party. Though, she didn't love him back. She treated him like absolute shit. JJ didn't notice, he was too blindly in love with her. Saying you were simply just jealous would be an understatement. You were beyond jealous. You loved JJ more than you should. You loved everything about him, every little fucking thing. You loved his laugh, his smile, his hair, his eyes. Everything.
You dreamt of the day he'd announce that he loved you. Though, it'll never come. He loved another girl. Another girl that wasn't you.
''JJ, she's a moron for leaving you. Don't be sad over her, it's a waste of time. I fucking love you, we all fucking love you. She's nothing but a bitch, alright. A bitch who doesn't know what she's missing. Your wonderful, never doubt yourself'' You snap, his arms remained tightly around your waist. He frown was wiped off his face, as a smile formed. His tears stopped as he kissed your cheek. ''I love you too, Y/N. Thank you for being a great friend''
Friend. A word you despised. A word you hated. You didn't want to be just a friend.
You wanted JJ to brag about you. You wanted JJ to shower you with kisses. You wanted JJ to talk about you constantly. But, it's never going to fucking happen. Your just a friend, and never going to be more. You hated being just a friend.
''Friends forever, right?''
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I didn't know how to end this, but this bitch graduating tomorrow. To high school, we go.
