𝐣𝐣 𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬

Insecure [4] | Chapter fourteen

(Couple of kids • Maddie Lindemann)
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[Thank you guys for all of the requests & positive words on my book! Thank you all for 10k reads! that's crazy! I would love to do more Rudy imagines so comment some concepts you'd like to see!]
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[TW: Miscarriage and Anorexia will be mentioned]
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You were blindly in love with JJ
Maybank. So blindly in love. You hated to admit it, but fuck it. You loved him. Maybe more than yourself. Though, you weren't good enough for JJ. You weren't pretty, like Kiara. You didn't have a gorgeous baby shape, like Kiara. You were nothing compared to Kiara. Nothing.

So you went on a strict diet, and soon a strict diet turned into nothing. You hated this lifestyle, but hell, you loved JJ so fucking much. You hated that you loved him, but you couldn't help it. Your mind constantly landed on the blue-eyed, blonde-haired boy. You missed him.

Now you're here. A hospital in outer banks, patiently waiting in your hospital room to be discharged. No one cared you were in the hospital. No texts, calls, visits. No one. No one gave a shit about you. Just like you thought. Not even your closest friends or family gave a single fuck about your life. 

'' Y/N! glad to see your awake'' Your doctor said.  You didn't respond. ''You know, you're very lucky your alive. You could've died from a massive heart attack, even a stroke.'' The doctor said. "Though, we have some sad news''

''Your baby- Your baby died'' Your heart stopped. Your body sank into the hospital bed. "excuse me? baby'' ''Y/N, you were three months pregnant.''

Your eyes water. Baby? You were pregnant? Are three months pregnant? ''I'll leave you alone. Ring the nurse if you need anything'' The doctor said, leaving you alone. You tried to control your race car thoughts, but you couldn't. Pregnant? 

''Y/N, we have some visitors'' The nurse said, bringing them into the small hospital room. JJ Maybank. JJ fucking Maybank. Memories flood your mind like a tsunami. ''Y/N, we need to talk''

Tears trickle down your cheek. "Y/N, I know you hate me. But please, please talk to me'' JJ begs. ''About what?''

''About everything. The baby-''

''What baby?''

''Y/N, don't play dumb. Unless you fucked around with other men while we were dating, that baby was mine''

''Oh, like how you fucked around with Kiara while we were dating?''

''Y/N just please-''

''We don't have to talk about shit, Maybank. You broke my heart. My broke my fucking heart and did shit that I can never forgive you for. I tried my best to make you happy but it meant nothing. You and your friends haven't called me in weeks JJ. weeks. Not a simple ''Hello''. JJ, I love you but- you hurt me. You hurt me in ways I didn't know existed.''

You snapped. You could see the regret on his face. Nothing but pure regret. You rush to the bathroom, locking the door.

''Y/N, please open the door'' You didn't respond. ''Please just open the fucking door'' JJ pleads. You could hear JJ's soft cries.

"Please-''

''JJ you should leave'' You simply say. "Y/N, five seconds. Please five fucking seconds to explain to me'' He says, banging lightly on the hospital door.

''Y/N. I fucking love you, with all of my fucking heart. I miss you. I miss being around you. I miss holding you. I don't know why I slept with Kiara or even kissed her. But, fuck. I regret it with all of my heart. I love you Y/N, no one else. Just please forgive me'' You hesitate. He would do it again, right? He would break your heart. ''JJ please leave'' You mumble. With that, the room door slams shut. Tears trickle down your cheeks. Fuck.

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How should I end this series? Any requests?