in the night- h.s

chapter 55

October 2017

"So Rosalie, how have you been feeling lately?" Karen asked.

"I miss him." She confessed. Karen nodded in response, writing something down. Rosalie always wondered what Karen thought of her, probably pathetic and useless if she can't keep the most perfect man on earth.

"That's good. You're grieving your relationship and missing him is completely normal." She assured her. "What do you miss about him?"

"Oh." She sighed, feeling slightly uncomfortable. "His touch, his kisses, the way he made me feel" Karen stared at her as if she was expecting more so she closed her eyes and imagined him. "The way he would always make a cup of tea whenever something went wrong, the way he would stare at me, his dimples and his smile." Her face scrunched you. "The way he made me feel loved and always wanted me to meet new people. He believed in me and I just miss how it felt for someone to always be there and be nice to you." She hadn't realised a few tears had fallen out until Karen was putting a tissue in her hand.

"Take a deep breath. This is a good thing, that you're feeling all these things." Her assurance did nothing for Rosalie. She felt like shit and she wanted it to go away as soon as possible. "Do you have anyone you can talk to about this? A support system of any sort at home?"

"I suppose I have Lola although she doesn't know him very well." She scrunched the tissue into her hand and took a deep breath.

"What about your friend Sarah?" She wondered, referring back to her notes. "You have mentioned talking to her about him." Rosalie shook her head.

"She's on tour with him." She shook her head.

"Okay. I think you need to put yourself out there. Meet some new people, make some new friends. Focus on you for a while. The reason why you broke up with him was because you didn't love yourself so you couldn't love him. Do things that make you happy, take some photos, throw yourself into work. The more you become the person you want to be, the less it will hurt." She advised.

Rosalie walked home after her therapy session, deciding to just walk the whole way instead of taking the tube. Sometimes she despised Karen, wishing the absolute worst for her and sometimes she could kiss her and tell her she was the best person in the world. That day was a weird middle, she hated that she had cried in front her but she was thankful that she had given her good advice.

"I'm home." She spoke at an average volume, kicking off her shoes and walking into the living room to see if anyone was home. She found Nick making some sort of food in the microwave.

"Hey." Nick greeted her. "How was therapy? You fixed yet?" He teased. Rosalie rolled her eyes, throwing her bag on the table. "Not yet then." He continued.

"I'm miserable." She announced and the microwave dinged.

"I would be too if I'd just dumped Harry Styles." His spirits were always high and sometimes Rosalie wanted to stab him because of that.

"Thanks." She mumbled, he chuckled and pouted since he had failed at making her smile.

"Are you really miserable?" He wondered. She nodded and watched as his arms opened for her. Rosalie had never hugged Nick before so this was a new and weird experience for her. But, she needed a hug so she wrapped her arms around him and let out a sigh. After a moment, she moved away from him quickly.