(NOTE: I'm actually posting on time it's a sign of the apocalyps.)
Eventually we fell asleep me holding on to Lidia and Sam’s hand. My head was resting on his bedside and my face was sore but all I did was hope and pray making promises to Sam that we would be together forever if he would just wake up, promising to change my life, and telling Lidia everything will be alright. Inside there was a different battle I wanted to believe the words I was telling Lidia but my heart was breaking knowing I may never hear him tell me he loves me or hear him sing. So much could be lost if he leaves I don’t think I would be able to handle that. Please let him wake up he has so much to offer such a life to live.
“Chris…Christi…Christina…”
“S…S…Sammi?” I look up and see the pain in his blue eyes they are dull and clouded, he looks so tired and drained… he looks dead.
“I…I…Love You.”
“I love you too Sam. They were not sure if you were going to make it.”
“Christina…I’m so cold and tired. I had a dream and there was a voice it’s telling me to come to it.”
“Don’t go Sam we need you here we all love you so much. I’ll go tell the nurse you are awake.”
“Okay.”
“Please stay up Sam don’t leave us.” With that I left the room to tell the nurse. Lidia has woken up thanks to our talking crying and thanking God he was awake. As I approached the nurses’ station I heard an alarm sound and watched a group of doctors rush down the hall. “Please don’t go to his room please, please, please be running somewhere else.” At that moment it felt as if the life was taken from me and I could literally feel my heart break. What’s going on? There is so much pain all I could do was stop and grab my chest. I turn and see a kicking and screaming Lidia thrashing in a huge nurses arms.
“You have to let me back in! That is my baby, my son! You can’t expect me to sit here and let him die! Go save him! Let me talk to him! Let me go to my son!” She collapsed to the floor crying loud heart breaking sobs. It took everything in me to get to her and hold her. I have to be strong for her Sam would want me too. My chest fells tight like someone is holding onto my heart and squeezing it like a stress ball ready to pop. There is so much pain. It gets quiet to quiet for a hospital and all I can hear are Lidia’s sobs for Sam.
“Shhhhh… Lidia it’s alright. All is calm, all is quiet he has to be fine. God wouldn’t take your child from you.”
Doctor: “Ma’am are you the mother of Sam Mendoza?”
“-sniffles- Yes that is me. My name is Lidia.”
Doctor: “Yes pardon me. Lidia we have stabilized your son. It seems he went into cardiac arrest but we were able to get him in time.”
“Thank you so much.”
“Is he awake?”
Doctor: “Excuse me?”
“Is. He. Awake?”
“No. He is resting right now but you may go in.” without saying a word in response to the doctor I walked into his room my chest was on fire and my eyes were burning. I want to cry but if I do I think Lidia will cry again and I will stop believe the words I’m using to comfort her. Please just come back Sam.
~3 hours later~
It quiet like uncomfortably silent, I fidgeted in my seat. I can’t seem to get rid of this pain in my chest or the feeling that something bad is going to happen.
*Beep… Beep… Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep*
More doctors and nurses flooded the room, my chest begins to hurt worse than before. Lidia and I are told to get out and wait in the waiting room but I can’t move it’s like my feet are glued in place and all I can do is watch the scene like a terrible movie. I see it all. They zap him once, check him then they do it again. The doctors are shouting for someone to get me out. A nurse takes me out the door and sits me in a chair Lidia is asking me questions but all I can hear is the blood rushing in my head, the pain is getting worse, it’s getting dark and then…. Calm, no pain, just nothing, I feel hollow. He’s gone.”
“He’s gone.”
“What are you talking about Christina?”
“Sam is gone. I can feel it Lidia can’t you?”
“God wouldn’t take him he is my child. He was a good boy a child of God.”
“Lidia I understand that but I’m telling you know he is gone.”
“-sobbing- he can’t be he just can’t.”
Doctor: “Mrs. Mendoza.”
“We know he’s gone.”
Doctor: “How did you…”
“I felt my world die.”
Doctor: “ I’m sorry for your lost, we did everything we could to try and save him.”
“Your sorry will not bring him back now if you would excuse me I have to take his mother in there to see her child and I have to call the rest of his family they will want to be here. Good day doctor.” I didn’t mean to be so cold to him but I feel nothing anymore just hollowed and empty. Dead.
(NOTE: I'm Literally crying right now!)
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