Shadows of the marked

17

   The car ride home with Calvin was silent. Other than when he tried to start a conversation with me by asking me what the hell I thought I was doing out running while I'm in heat. It really wasn't the kind of thing you say to someone who you just left with your friends. Cal's grip on the steering wheel looks like it's going to break it, and he's going unreasonably fast. I must have pissed him off.

When we pulling into the driveway, Cal puts the car in park and turns to look at me. His jaw is clenched, an his hair is a mess. "Please never run off like that again, Gray. I was worried sick about you." He goes to reach for my arm and I jerk away.

"You were worried about me?" I furrow my eyebrows. "You didn't call or anything while I was staying with Ben and Ally. You didn't care how I was doing. So don't you dare say that you were worried sick about me after you got what you wanted from me." I growl loudly. "You, the first time you see me all you want to do is sleep with me? Why wouldn't I run off? You made me feel like that's all you wanted from me, and it's been proven." I cross my arms over my chest.

"You didn't care last night." He says with a straight face. It wasn't the usual cocky attitude that he usually gives me. He furrows his eyebrows. "You wanted it too." He clenches his jaw. "I clearly remember you pushing my head in between your pretty little legs to take care of you." He grunts out. As much as I hate to say it, as mad as I am at him, it made me feel wet down below. I swallow.

"I'm in heat, Cal. You're lucky I didn't fuck your best friend because I was so desperate." I huff out. A loud growl shakes the car and I shoot my attention right back to the Alpha.

"Don't." He growls again, pinching the bridge of his nose. "I will go crazy." He whispers, breathing heavily.

"You only wanted me back now because you would go crazy without me." I snarl, I feel my claws begin to extend.

"I wanted to get away from you because I couldn't give you what we wanted. I was tired of hurting you and I wanted to leave to try and let you be happy with someone else." He huffs out. "But our bond is broken and my wolf is outraged by it." Cal grumbles. "Please, let me calm down."

"So you are going crazy! Ben was right!" I exclaim angrily. Ben never got to finish why he had gone crazy the last time. Calvin whispers something under his breath about Ben and looks back at me.

"I did. I'm trying to prevent it from happening again." He says angrily, but calmly. I stare at him, I look the man in front of me up and down before continuing to argue.

"What happened last time?" I remark narrowing my eyes at him.

Calvin looks at me and clenches his jaw. "I went crazy."

"Why?" I push the subject. I need to know what happened that made him do it before. Someone had to have been in his life before me.

Calvin clenches his jaw. "It doesn't involve you." He hisses.

"As your wife, it does involve me. When it's this big of a risk, I need to know what caused it the first time." I harshly say. "Tell me, or I'll let you go."

Calvin stares me down like he wants to kill me. He looks down at his hands and then back up at me. The air is thick, and there isn't any kind of noise. I stare back at Calvin, trying to match his deadly gaze.

Why doesn't he want to tell me? The fact that my question is making him look at me like that sends chills down my spine. Calvin has been around so long I didn't think anything would bother him by now. I mean, this was recent considering it was ten years ago.

Calvin flares his nostrils, giving up on the staring contest. He lets out a sad sigh and looks back down at his hands. "I lost my son, Gray." I instantly feel a wave of regret. Calvin's feelings intertwine with mine and it makes me feel like I'm sinking.