You're Different || Jimmy Darling

Chapter 16 "It's Complicated..."

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We walked into the Freak show and mostly everyone looked as if they retreated to their tents to sleep for the night. It was already late into the night and just as we were about to go into his trailer for the night Ethel ran up to us.

"Oh my god! Thank god y'all are ok! I was so worried." She said hugged Jimmy tightly resulting in our hands separating.

"And Melanie I was so worried for you as well!" She said moving on to me and hugging me tightly also.

"It's ok ma, were ok." Jimmy said.

"Y'all scared me almost to death I thought I had lost you Jimmy..." She said as tears welled up in her eyes.

"It's ok Ethel we are fine, don't worry yourself more than you have to. Just tell the others that we arrived safely please."

"Ok Melanie, good night for now go rest. Jimmy come with me for a minute, walk me to my tent please." She asked as she motioned for him to follow her.

"See you in a bit darling." He said quickly kissing me on the cheek before he dissapered with his mother.

I returned to the trailer and decided to change into one of his shirts and I now that I knew where his pj pants where I grabbed a pair to change into.

Jimmy POV

"So what's up ma? Cause I know somethings up, so don't try hidden it." I said kicking the rocks as I walked along with her.

"Jimmy I'm worried for you, I can see that you and Melanie are getting along great but sooner or later shes gonna find out what you did. Its already illegal enough that your dating her, shes what 16 and your 21. I just don't wanna lose my boy, I want you to be happy but you need to find away to get yourself out of this mess. I-I-I want you to put the officers badge in Dell's trailer." She said with a serious face.

"Ma, don't worry about me and for the record your never gonna lose me. Im happy with my life right now and so what yeah she might be a little younger than me by a lot but Melanie is my everything, I love her...but I know sooner or later that I need to tell her just not right now. I don't wanna be messing things up with her. And Ma you don't get a say in who I'm with, I'm old enough to do shit on my own. Why do you want me to put the badge in who's trailer?" I asked confused.

"Dell, you need to put it in his trailer Jimmy. It's complicated...I just need him out of my life out of this fucking Freak show! I don't want him around me and especially you, trust me son he is a bad man...he needs to pay for what he has put us through!" My mother said almost on the verge of crying.

"Ma, what are you blubbering about I have no idea who this man is! I don't want to be accusing an innocent man, that's not right. If I have to I'll throw it in the fricking lake." I said frustrated with her.

"Jimmy, I told you it's complicated later you will find out how Dell really is but right now I just want him out of our fucking lives so I don't have to put up with his shit!"

"Ma! Just tell me who the hell he is! Why all the secrets? You know you don't have to hide anything from me right?"

"Jimmy you don't understand! That man from before the bald one he's..."

"Just say it ma!"

"He's your father! Ok I said it he is your fucking father!" She yelled as we neared her tent, tears started to fall down her cheeks.

"Ma...why did you keep this from me? All this shit about how bad he treated us, when he left us alone on the fucking street to rot! I could have done something the minute he stepped his foot into my home!" I yelled in anger.

"Jimmy just please we can talk about this another time, right now just leave me alone! I need a god damn drink." She sighed as she went into her tent and grabbed her favorite liquor bottle.

"Ma, stop drinking! Your liver is already bad enough."

"Jimmy stop telling me what I should do and look at yourself! The booze helps ok? Now leave, I just wanna be alone son..." She said pushing me put of her tent still with the bottle in her hand.

"Ma please..."

"Jimmy I said go away son, are you deaf?"

I was just so done with everything. I was a mix of emotions, pissed, angry, sad, worried. I care about Ma and to hear all of this from her it hurts because I wish she would have told me sooner. What I didn't like was how she was throwing all this stuff about Melanie and I, I was a grown man I don't need Ma to be controlling my relationships too. Plus our relationship despite the age difference was a hell lot better than most couples. Anyway, I still couldn't believe Dell or that bald guy from before was my dad. I vaguely remember the day he left my mother and I on the street, all I really remember was that stupid little car of his. I quickly walked over to his trailer and opened the door. Nobody was inside, the coast was clear. I snuck over to the bedroom and hid the badge in a drawer under some clothes. I ran out and shut the door behind before anyone saw.

Melanie's POV

God Jimmy was sure taking his sweet little time getting back to the trailer. Finally he came into the trailer with a face that I couldn't quite describe, he looked angry yet sad. I was on his bed reading one of the loose magazines from the nightstand. He stormed into the bedroom as he started to unbutton his brown shirt reveling his tank top.

"Baby, what's wrong?" I said still skimming the pages of the magazine.

"I'm fine, what are you talking about?"

"Jimmy please I know somethings wrong, did something happen with you mother?" I asked, now I put the magazine down and inched closer to the edge of the bed.

"I promise it's nothing darling, don't go worrying yourself about me." He said still looking into the mirror by the dresser that was in front of the bed.

"Jimmy...I have every reason to worry about you just like you do about me so don't tell a woman not to worry but if you say it's nothing than I trust you." I wanted to trust him and I knew I could but something was up, ever since the ferris wheel he has wanted to tell me something but he hasn't.

"You trust me?" He asked turning from the dresser mirror to face me.

"Yes, yes Jimmy I trust you because I-" I was interrupted by his lips pressing against mine.

I laid down from my sitting position on the edge of the bed. I cupped his face as he lowered himself down on me. I pressed harder making the kiss more passionate. He pulled away and started to give me neck kisses and pulled off some of my shirt to continue toward my shoulders. I slightly moaned as things were starting to get pretty intense. I tugged at the bottom of his tank top and pulled it off throwing it to the floor. I smiled against his lips I loved him, I was truly in love with him. I closed my eyes for a slight second as his lips pushed against mine and somehow the memories of my father gripping my arms and beating me flashed before my eyes. I opened my eyes again and he was still gripping my arms as I kissed him roughly back. I couldn't get the memories out of my head and that's when I snapped.

"Jimmy, please stop!" I said trying to push him off.

He let go of me right away and gave me space to breathe. He sat next to me as I lifted up. He put his arm around me pulling me into a hug.

"It's ok darling, it's ok." He said shushing me as he ran his fingers through my hair.

"Jimmy, the the the dreams flashed before my eyes. I wanted to stop them but my father he was...the way you gripped me reminded me of...him." I said letting a single tear escape from my eye.

"It's ok, don't cry I'm here now." He said tightly hugging me and kissing my forehead.

"Ok..." I said as I pulled away and laid on the pillow next to me.

He laid down from behind and wrapped his arm around my waist. I intertwined my hand with his as we both fell asleep together.