You're Different || Jimmy Darling

Chapter 30 Not a Criminal

"So whats on your mind baby?" He asked squeezing my hand as he looked into my eyes as he laid there as I was sitting up against the head board.

"Jimmy...remember before when I was throwing up by the bushes earlier today?" I said trying to ease in the fact that his dad was planning to kill him or even someone else in the time line of 2 days.

"Yeah...what about it?" He asked as his eyes widened.

"Well while I was there and you went inside, I over heard you dad talking to Stanly, that guy who came with Maggie. He had Dell at gun point telling him to purposely take you to the bar and get you drunk so he could hand you over to Stanly for I don't even wanna know what for. I was so scared of losing you, I don't know what I would do without you. You dad is planning to kill someone soon and I needed to tell you the truth about that bastard." I said playing with his hair yet again messy.

"Melanie, did I just hear you right? My dad killing someone? Are you serious!?" He asked shocked.

"Yes Jimmy! Why would I lie about something like this?! Dell doesn't want to but Stanly is forcing him to kill someone in the next 2 days."

"God, what the fuck! Why would Stanly want to kill us?! We need to put him in jail or I don't know! He needs to be stopped and my dad, I don't even know where to fucking start with him. Did he really attack Eve?"

"Wait, how did you know about that?"

"He told me she attacked him, that he was the victim in the whole situation. He probably tried to kill Eve too! I don't give a shit if he is my dad I want him the fuck out of here! And Stanly, we need to turn him in or something, get the guy jailed, he's technically killing in cold blood!"

"Oh god what if Stanly...and Ma Petite...my god!" I said almost crying thinking about just the other day when the box with her bloody dress was delivered to our front door practically.

"That bitch!" I blurted out realizing that if Stanly was up to all of this Maggie had to be his little assistant in hiding.

"Um..." Jimmy said shooting me a confused face.

"Maggie, she has to be apart of this shit too. She just has too, I swear I could kill that bitch!" I said grinding me teeth in anger and clenching my free hand into a fist. The bitch always got under my skin.

"And-and Meep...he must have known about the badge and switched it!"

"Wait? What!" I asked confused.

"Oh...I never told you about how I took care of things..." He said in a low voice as he sat up next to me still holding my hand.

"The only thing I had left from the detective that I killed was a badge. I have no idea why I kept the stupid thing but it was evidence. I had to get rid of it somehow and for everyones sake I decided to risk it and plant it in Dells stuff, make it look like he did it. I was only thinking of everyones benefit, especially yours. Plus we wanted him out of here anyway..." He said looking down in shame.

"Jimmy, its ok. I understand...Im not mad at you for doing what you did, I know you did what you thought was best for everyone so stop acting so guilty. We all have a past, including me but we have to act in the moment remember? Your not a criminal to me." I said lifting his chin up to face me.

"Mel, if I hadn't put the badge in Dells trailer Meep wont be gone right now. This is all my fault, should have just put that shit in the lake. Look where that stupid badge got us now, Meep is gone..." He said letting a tear escape his eye, his eyes were droopy and slightly red, probably the liquor still.

"This isn't your fault, stop blaming everything on yourself. You couldn't do anything about it Jimmy, there was nothing you could do, you just followed your heart and did what you thought was best." I said smiling because seeing him cry just broke my heart every time, I finally understood why he hated seeing me cry.

"Melanie, I just want you to know I love you..." He said crashing his lips into mine, I was caught off guard still at the fact the I was still kinda pissed at how stupid he was acting as he bubbie bonded with Dell, but I got over it real fast.

"Jimmy, just promise me things will be ok..." I said pulling away as I leaned up against his forehead.

"Don't worry...I promise, I will fix this somehow." He whispered as he cupped my face and pulled me onto his lips again, they tasted like liquor and it lingered on his lips, I liked the taste of it though.

"Baby when you left and got drunk and came back all messed up, I have to admit I was pissed that you left me alone. It just pissed me off how you were all friendly with Dell, you shouldn't have to beg for his approval as your father. If he was a real father he wont have left you in the first place." I said as I moved closer and rested my hands at the back of his neck playing with the hairs.

"The funny thing is for some stupid reason I wanted to hear him say it, admit it, but now that he has it doesn't feel special, it didn't change anything, I still hate his fucking guts. I guess I was just hoping if he admitted it that things would change but they never do..."

"Things never change, I know they dont because I have been telling myself the same thing for 16 years. No matter how much you wanna believe there is even a slight part in him thats human, you just cant because thats when I realized he was never going to change. Thats when I realized he was never really a father to begin with. You know whats the worst part is that you ask yourself 'what did I do to deserve this? What did I do to be treated this way?' Before the water works come out, can we just sleep please?" I asked before the tears were about to fall.

He nodded and slid back down to his pillow as I cuddled at his side. I curled up to him nestling my head close to crook of his neck and laying my head on his chest.

"Sleep tight baby..." I heard him whispered as he kissed the top of my head.

I smiled as fell asleep in the moon light right by his side. The memories started to creep up on me again and here I was again back in my nightmares.

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