You're Different || Jimmy Darling

Chapter 44 "The Only Reason..."

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Melanie's POV

Ever since the night of Ethel's funeral Jimmy hasn't been the same. I understand he was hit pretty hard by her suicide but he was really spinning out of control. He just wasn't the same Jimmy I met back at the beginning of June. He started drinking more and he wont come home until late in the night. He would always stumble into the door drunk and we would always fight and makeup.

I was always there for him but every time I tried to help he just pushed me away and continued to drink. He was falling down a path I was always afraid he would turn to and everything I tried didn't work. I found myself right at the start again...

I called into work telling Flo I need some time off because of a family death and she surprisingly took it well. She gave me the rest of the week off since it was already thursday at this point. I just wasn't ready to be running around taking orders with all the shit going on right now.

Today I was helping out in the outdoor kitchen getting lunch ready for everyone. Jimmy was sitting on a rock with his back turned away, I knew he was drinking just by hearing the splashing of the liquor from inside the bottle. I was at my last straw, this wasn't healthy for any of us. The fights at night, the stress on the babies, this wasn't good. Something sparked in me to just march over there and smack some sense into him.

I put down what I was working on and I pulled off the apron I was wearing. I stormed over to Jimmy and I smacked the bottle out of his hand sending it flying and breaking onto one of the loose rocks. He got up and looked furious.

"Mel! What the fuck was that for!?"

"Jimmy! I cant take this anymore, I'm tired of watching you sit and literally poison yourself with that shit! Don't act like everything is ok because it's not! We fight all the time and yeah we makeup because I love you, I do what I do because I love you and I want whats best for all of us!" I said hinting toward my stomach because this also put stress on the babies also.

"Oh you cant take this shit anymore?! Then why don't you fucking leave? Nothings holding you ba-back, just leave me the fuck alone! Why cant a man have some fucking space around here!?" Jimmy said as he clenched his fists.

"Maybe I will! I'm done with you! Every single night you come home drunk off your ass and guess who is there to catch you? I am! I'm always there for you and you don't even acknowledge the fact that I'm trying to help you! The liquor is getting to your head and I keep telling myself that, maybe its just the liquor, that there is still apart of the Jimmy I met in the diner but you have changed Jimmy Darling and I'm not sure I wanna be around another person who is becoming into my father! I thought you were different, I thought this was forever..."I said out of breath as I started to walk away with tears in my eyes. I tried to push the thoughts out of my head to not go back to just keep walking away. It pained me to just walk away like that but I was on my last nerve, if I actually meant something to him he would run after me, he would apologize for being stupid. He was the only reason I was sane at this point. He was my other half, the love of my life or I thought...

Jimmy was the one I could turn to, he understood me, caught me when I was broken but now everything was just a fucking blurry mess. Im a mess and everything I touched seem to fall apart, I knew something like this was gonna happen. There was no denying our love was different but now the dream I thought I was living started to become like a bunch of tangled wires. How was I gonna fix this, undo all the pain? I was broken and now with all the death and pain he was breaking too, I don't think this was gonna be able to be fixed.

He was the only reason, he was all I could have asked for. He made me feel like I've never felt before, he made me feel alive, he picked up the broken pieces when no one else would, he filled the only space in my heart that I thought no one else would do. Just thinking about the times he would come home late I would try to sleep but I would just fall apart not being able to breathe without having his arms around me.

He changed me as much as I changed him and I'm starting to think this is a mistake. I cant leave Jimmy, leaving him would be like ripping a part of my heart out and throwing it into the river. One stupid fight wasn't worth it, I couldn't lose him. I need to go back fix this, he was the only reason for living. I would rather die than live a life without him. It cant be too late to bring us back to life.

I saw him running after me in the distance but I was already at the entrance and almost walking on the dirt road. I turned around with dried tears in my eyes as I saw him run faster toward me now that I was stopped in my tracks.

A black car came speeding behind me and next thing I know I was being knocked over the head. I collapsed to the ground as my vision got blurry and unclear, I started fading in and out as my eyes started to almost close shut. The last thing I saw was...Maggie?