You're Different || Jimmy Darling

Chapter 29 A Lot On My Mind

Jimmy POV

He helped me into the car and even buckled the seat beat for me, I was drunk off my ass and I was fading in and out. I had completely passed out in the passenger seat because as soon as I woke up we were already back home. It was around 11pm and it was really dark already. Dell helped me out and dragged me along as he supported me with his strong shoulders. I was moaning and groaning out of sleepiness and sickness from how hungover I was from like what 6 or 7 shots, god I was such a light weight. I think he was also a little drunk too because we started to scream and yell at the top of our lungs. Out of no where we started to sing some random tune.

"Have you heard about the big strong man? Well he lived in a caravan!" Dell sang.

"Caravan!" I sang so loudly the whole family probably woke up.

Then Dell sang again, "He put up a hell of a fight!"

"Yeah!" I shouted out loudly.

We both laughed and stumbled over each others feet. A very angry Elsa and Desi came over to us.

"Hey! You two are drunk! I wont let you wake up the camp because of you stupidness!" Elsa said flinging her hands in the air as she came out in her baby blue silk sleeping dress and a pink robe.

"Too late for that! Jimmy! Don't let that man corrupt you with his baaaad habits! You still have time to be somebody!" Desi said also furious as she walked toward us with a orange and yellow robe with a towel on her head and sunglasses.

"Hey! He is somebody! He is my son! But I'm proud to admit it. JIMMYS MY SON!" Dell said defensively yet screaming out loud.

"Yeahhhh!" I said cheering him on, seriously why the hell was I on his side, this made completely no sense.

"Wow! Congratulations! Must of taken real courage to finally proclaim your progeny after 21 years! You two go to bed and sleep it off." She said clapping her hands.

"You know this is the perfect time to tell you something my father would tell me. It the Toledo code! The first minute you let a woman tell you what to do is the minute you hand over your balls to them." He said looking me straight in the eye as he stressed the fact.

"I-I-I wanna keep my balls." I said agreeing with him, seriously what the fuck, I wasn't in my right mind.

"You hold onto them son." He said assuring me.

"Things are gonna change around here Elsa! No more bossing us around! You have two strong men and we are gonna run this joint!" I said yelling as I got closer to her pointing in her face trying to make a point.

"Yeah thats right!" Dell said but he pushed me and I fell to the ground, he started laughing his ass off as he saw me fall.

"Oof! Ah!" I said hitting the ground, everything hurt all over as I hit the ground.

"Idiots." Elsa said nodding her head in shame and disappointment.

"Come on Jimmy." Dell said stumbling to grab me.

"Ughhh!" I moaned as he pulled me up.

"Yeah! Sing it baby! Sing it! Shhh, shhh, quiet Elsa. Don't wanna wake anyboddyyyyy! Shhhh! Quiet!" I yelled as I held my finger by my mouth telling them to be quiet, I was so drunk off my ass I didn't even know what the fuck I was even saying anymore.

"Quiet! Quiet Elsa!" I yelled as Dell dragged me away to my trailer, surprisingly Melanie wasn't in there which made me super confused.

He dragged me toward my bed and I fell on top falling almost immediately asleep.

"Im-im gonna say something I-I never thought I was gonna ever say, night dad..." I said finally closing my eyes as he put the covers over me.

Melanie POV

Thank god Jimmy was back unharmed and safe! I climbed down from the little stool I was standing on in Amazons trailer so I could see outside her window.

"Dell, didn't hurt Jimmy! Thank god! I have to go over and check on him." I said about to leave Amazons trailer.

"Oh thats good news but what about Dell? If he is planning to kill our own he cant be trusted, just be careful around him Melanie and when Jimmy is sober tell him the truth, he needs to know how much of a monster his father really is, not the man hiding behind the mask. If anybody you should be the one to tell him." She said warning me as I nodded and left to the trailer.

I opened the door to our trailer softly trying not to wake Jimmy. Was I mad that he got drunk? Yes. Was I mad at the fact that all of a sudden he was bubbie bubbie with the enemy? Yes. Ive never seen Jimmy like this, not the fact that he was drunk but the fact that he was acting idiotic. But what I was most afraid of was that he would turn into the one person I hated the most, my father. I knew deep inside he wont but right in the moment as I watched him sleep as I laid next to him, I just couldn't keep the thought out of my mind. I flashed back to my dream and what my angel of darkness for a mother said to me.

"You should be ashamed of yourself! Leaving your mother when she needed you! I loved you and had to put up with you for 16 years! I gave birth to you the least you could have done was help me but no you ran away with your little boyfriend! I bet he doesn't even love you, he is probably gonna abuse you and be a drunk just like you father is that what you want!?"

I tried pushing away the dream, I wanted nothing to do with that monster of a woman, to think I could have trusted her! She fell into trouble, where was the mother I used to love who would tuck me in at night and tell me the monsters weren't gonna come out of the closet and eat me? Where was the mother who actually took most of the beatings and saved my ass millions of times so I wont have to suffer another bruise on my thighs from my fathers belt. Where did she go? It was like that mother disappeared into thin air. She was with a fake smile for one minute and then a sad and beaten one the next. She stuffed away the pain and suffering, she needed something more to take the pain away. She did everything, drugs, selling her body, liquor, smokes, but obviously nothing would take away the years of pain she went through with my father. She cared and loved us there was no doubting that but when she was under that trance she didn't care about anything else but herself what she needed and wanted. Sometimes I wonder if moving from Tampa was the right choice, if it weren't for the fight on that one night we would all still be living a semi normal yet messed up life. But then I realize it was the right choice coming down to Jupiter. Just as things looked to be normal and happy for everyone my mother comes driving in the her giant wreaking ball of pain. Until she got her shit together I was never going to talk to her again. All I cared about was the family close to me and right now it was Jimmy, John, grandma and the rest of the bunch right here at home. You know its funny how I found such a wonderful home in such an odd place, sometimes home isn't always were you expected it to be...

After dosing off for almost an hour in my mind I felt a hand graze mine. It was Jimmy reaching for my hand. I smiled as he struggled to finally intertwine his fingers with mine. The moment looked perfect, moonlight through the window reflecting off of his skin, our hands holding one another, the smile on my face but except for the fact that it wasn't. I was still clearly upset with him and I needed to talk with him.

"Jimmy baby...you awake?" I asked tapping his shoulder.

"Ughhh...yeahhh." He said moaning and groaning, must of been his first hangover, not like I would know anyway since I myself have never even had one to begin with.

"Are you ready to talk now?" I asked sweetly trying not to rush things as I tried flipping him over to face me.

"Yeah I guess, whats on your mind baby?" He asked finally gaining a clear voice now that he was starting to wake up fully.

"A lot is on my mind, you have no idea..." I said before I could finally jump into what I wanted to talk to him about.

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