You're Different || Jimmy Darling

Chapter 34 Nothing Is Ok

She stood there like she didn't care, but I could tell she was afraid of what he was capable of doing. I was still in complete shock, I was in full freaking the fuck out mode.

"Thats why. The minute I got that note in the mail thats when I started to spiral out of control, I tried everything to make it seem like it was real like it was just a dream. I wanted to believe that he didn't know where we were, that he wasn't watching us. That he wouldn't come for us."

"I cant believe you waited all this time to tell me this! What the hell, I just I don't know! I don't know what to say!" I said pulling at my hair and pacing as I continued to freak out.

"Want one?" She offered me a smoke, I slapped it out of her hand and she backed off quickly.

"No I don't want a fucking smoke, are you nuts!? Ok, ok you need to pack your bags take John and grandma and leave right away." I said firmly.

"What about you? Oh no you don't missy you are not staying here!"

"I don't know, I might leave I might not I have no idea yet! I just need to talk to Jimmy."

"You know that he is coming to make our lives worse, right? Is that what you want?"

"Im 16 I can do whatever I want! I just need to talk to Jimmy before I go making drastic decisions." I said panicking and pulling more at my hair.

"Melanie your just a child! Until your 18 I'm not just gonna leave you here to be possible killed by a psychopathic man!" She said throwing her smoke to the ground now that she was finished with it.

"Oh look, all of a sudden she actually cares! You decided to drop all of your responsibilities and turn to drugs! So obviously the drugs were more important than your own children! I don't care what you have to say, I will do whatever I want, when I want, when ever I please because to me your no longer my mother."

"Melanie Marie! Im fed up with your bullshit! Im leaving in a week, you can leave with us or stay here, see if I care. If you come up in the news papers dead I wouldn't be surprised. See you next Sunday, ungrateful little shit!" She said leaving and getting back into her car and driving off. That car would always remind me of that night that I held John in my lap as we left.

I started to nervously pace as I looked at the crumbled note on the floor. I started to bit my lip and I couldn't help but cry. The tears streamed down my face as I slid down the side of the trailer door with my head in between my knees. In the matter of seconds my somewhat perfect life was now being crushed again.

I just I needed to talk to Jimmy we needed to do something, leave, or something I have no idea what to do anymore! My mind was crumbling to pieces still thinking about how my father was in town, that he was watching us, that he was out to get us. All of a sudden my nightmares were becoming a reality, this wasn't just a silly dream anymore.

"Melanie baby! Are you ok?" Jimmy asked rushing over to me as he pulled me up and off the floor. I stood there with tears in my eyes looking into his trying to find something that would help stop the crying.

"No...no Jimmy nothing is ok..." I said whispering as I grabbed onto him and sobbed into his chest.