You're Different || Jimmy Darling

Chapter 19 Past Full of Drinks

As the people crowded around Jimmy and I, the smile on his face was pure happiness. I could tell that it made him happy to see that for once in his life people weren't judging him for his hands. In that moment no one cared about his hands they accepted him as a person just like I always have. I too smiled because people were seeing him the way I saw him through my eyes.

For hours people talked to us and crowded around pushing gifts and desserts in our faces. Elsa even invited everyone to the show tonight. The only thing was that we didnt see was Maggie she saved all of us, why would she give us the spot light and not her? I would expect a bitch like her to always be taking the spotlight but not this time she was pouting as she watched everyone praise us, I guess she was just jealous that she could never be like us since she had no heart anyway. I swear since the moment she walked in here I knew she was going to be a problem and now that I think about it she would try to steal another woman's man, she picked the wrong woman to mess with.

I wasn't afraid of Maggie, not one single bit. I would take her on any day and beat her at her own game. I thought it fit for a little pay back since the bitch did try to take Jimmy away from me and plus she was a slut for trying to go for another woman's man, not on my watch. She was gonna get what was coming to her later but anyway once the crowd left Jimmy and I needed a little time away from everyone. We had been crowded by people for at least 2-3 hours so far. All the thanks and hugs was so generous and all but it was time to take a break if you ask me.

"So...what do you wanna do now?" I asked as he followed me into his trailer.

"How about some drinks I think its well deserved after all those people too." He said reaching into one of the kitchen's cabinets grabbing a bottle and two glasses.

"I guess, I've never really had a drink before though..." I said blushing.

"Well then this will be your first." He said walking over to the sofa with the two glasses, he handed me one as he sat down next to me.

"Yeah I guess so. Why the hell not cheers!" I said holding the glass out to clink it with his. He drank his in one shot as I took tiny sips.

"Don't be afraid of the drink it isn't gonna kill you. It helps if you just take it all in one shot and swallow fast." He said pouring another drink for himself.

I nodded at him and I tilted my head back as I drank the whole thing, which was barely a quarter of the glass anyway. It burned going down but it did tasted not too bad. I could get used to this. Thoughts of my father raced in my head but I tried my best to ignore them as much as I could, so I poured more continuing to drown the thoughts. I just wanted to drown the past, finally put it all away.

"So how was it?" He asked taking another hit of whiskey, I think thats what the bottle said.

"Good, it burns but its good." I said grabbing the bottle and pouring more into my glass.

"You will get used to the burning, I just really need this after all the shit happening right now." He said pouring yet another one.

"Yeah...me too, sometimes a good drink is all we need." I said swallowing fast.

"The dreams, my past it's been coming up a lot lately and I just wanna bury it far and deep away from my new life right now." I said pouring another drink.

"The past is the past, all we can think about now is the future." He said pouring another drink again.

"It all started with this." I said looking at the glass and drinking it all in one shot.

"Baby you don't have to talk about it if you don't want to." He said putting his hand on my shoulder.

"It's ok, I trust you and I want you to know." I said looking toward him.

"Alcohol. My father drank alot of it and then he would bring his drunk ass home. Thats when the fights started between my parents. He would abuse my mother repeatedly beating her and when he felt like it he would go and beat me. Back and forth bruised and cut, there wasn't a single time that I wasn't hurt. My baby brother came along and things got better, he actually tried to stop drinking and the love between them was mended but it fell apart again. The fights continued and he still drank over and over again, we just couldn't take it any more. So my family uprooted everything we had and moved down here. He ruined our lives all because of this little thing right here. Now look at me, I'm a fucked up mess all because of him I'm never gonna forgive him ever." I said pointing to my glass and downing the rest of drink quickly before any tears could escape my eyes.

"Baby I'm sorry...I know how hard it is for you. Mel baby your no fucked up mess and if you really think you are then your my fucked up mess and I love you for who you are. The past is the past and we will never be able to fix what happened. We just have to let go and move on, live in the moment, wherever we go, wherever life takes us. " He said inching closer tipping his glass toward me.

"Fucked up mess you say?" I said grinning, because his words meant so much to me and I just loved him to death.

"Oh baby you know what I mean." He said playing it off.

"We just need to live in the moment baby...expect the unexpected..." I said laying my glass on the table as I jumped on top of him crashing my lips on his.

Hey guys! Hope y'all like the song I know its pretty old and stuff but I really liked it and it fit well with what Jimmy was trying to say to Melanie or get his feelings across to her. Anyway enjoy and hope y'all like it! ;)