Another Chance

Blame-game

"What do you want?" "Clarification."

"Ha. Now? Don't you think it's too early for that?" I say,mocking him. "I know but I want it anyway," he says and sits back. The expression he has right now means business and I know I cannot run away.

"Alright. Then. Where do you want to begin?" I ask hugging my legs. "That paper." "Alright. That freaking piece of paper act was ridiculous! I hate that you did that to me. Don't you think I deserved more? 'Lets not meet again.' To hell with that. I want you to explain that for I might have interpreted it in the wrong manner," I say. That stunt had hurt me. It had made me wonder about many things.

He takes a deep breath and says," Did it hurt you that bad? Then imagine how must I have felt when you confessed out of the blue? I wanted us to be friends. Why would you ruin it? Weren't we fine? I mean I believed we were but then came your confession. I had no idea on how should I react to that. I didn't want to hurt you. Never. I have always felt bad for doing so and you ruined it. Completely!"

He was angry but he had to understand me now. I was sorry and he knew it. But I would never take the blame. He was responsible for fueling my mistake.

I look at him. "Are you for real? I mean, I don't remember ever asking for an answer. I never asked you to like me back! I never wanted that. I knew what I was doing. I knew from the start that crushing on you was going to be one sided. Do you think I am fool? I mean,come on. I know you too well to do that! And plus one sided is the best for people like me. I thought I explained that to you. Why would you react that way?" I finish. I wait for him to reply.

"How could you say that?! I tried my best to return your feelings and you say this. And now you are doing this because I rejected you," he said.

"Huh?! When did you reject me? Wait,all those times you said that we were just friends and that you could never hurt me ,blah blah, your rejection?!" I asked trying to control myself. I was angry now. Was I that pathetic?!

He nods. "I just could not face you after that and I was pretty angry at you for ruining our friendship so I thought of leaving. And to pay back." I look at him in disbelief. He was getting irritating now.

"You win. I don't wish to argue anymore," I says and look away. I lost. Badly. He was right.

He does not say anything and then silence occured but it's comfortable. This gown on for a while and I let it stay until the words slip from my tongue.

"I shouldn't have done that," I say. He heard it despite it being a wispher. "What?" "Confession. I am sorry I ruined it. I really am and I am not doing this because of anyone of you. It is my own choice," I say. He has the same expression he had a few days ago.

"And I am sorry for not clearing everything. I wanted to say this but it felt stupid so I didn't say it,but then,here it goes. Sofim,it's alright that you liked me and confessed your feelings. I should have responded properly but then I just confused you." I have never heard this much sincerity in my entire life.

I don't know about what kind of human he was but I know that he was definitely a good friend.

"You got your clarification now. So, bye. Get out fast. I don't want people to gather around." He does not argue though it is clear that he wasn't done.

"Sofim. Another chance?" "I wish."

He leaves and I can tell that he must feel relieved right now. A huge burden has been lifted off our shoulders.

I let the tears roll down and this time it's from both the eyes. I feel sad but at peace. "I don't deserve another chance."

"Walk faster!" I say and gently push Calvin ahead. Today we had been asked to come to the field to watch the football match. Five year olds were playing but then as long as we missed our classes,it was fine. "Wait. Ask this Abhyas to move faster," Calvin complains. I poke Abhyas making him move a little faster.

At this place we would never gat a good seat and I hated that. "Sofim move," Vivian says from behind and i know that Arial,who is behind her,is also getting irritated.

"It's not me!" I protest but then this pushing goes on until we are about to reach when someone breaks it.

"Sofim! Say cheese!" It was so sudden but thanks to my reflexes,I quickly hide my face and glare at Nate who is sitting with his bunch of friends and holding his phone up.

"Cha...I needed that!" He says and I take a deep breath before saying," Take permission first!"

A series of hootings and few back pats' follows. This person has no work to do.

"Please not now. I need them! Don't! Please..." I say and clutch my head. I don't realise when I fell asleep. My pillow or rather cushion is wet with my tears and it still hasn't finished.

"Please..."

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A/N: um... don't take my work personally:-) I assure you that it is completely fictional.