Mattia and the unexpected

Just hold me🥺

Mattia gives me his hoodie and lets me go shower. I cried so much in the shower, everytime I closed my eyes I saw the big heavy guy on me.
After a short but emotional shower I finally get out and lay on mattias bed while he showers.

Mattia:"I'll be upstairs sleeping in my brother room if you need anything okay"
I didn't say much the whole time while he was trying to help me .

Vanessa:"it's fine you can sleep here"
Mattia:"I'd rather not, it's fine"
Vanessa:"no please stay"
He takes his shirt off and lays next me.
They were both just laying facing the ceiling.
Mattia:"do you wanna talk about what happened or not"
I pull myself closer to Mattia and lay my head on his chest. He puts his arm around me. I felt safe and comfortable in his arms.
Vanessa:"i never wAnt to go through that ever again, i literally froze I couldn't move"
I started crying so much while explaining
Vanessa:"he was so heavy he was so pushy he wouldn't get off me"
Mattia:"it's not your fault and you don't have to keep explaining if you don't want to ,fuck I'm sorry you had to go through that"

I sit up and look him  in his eyes
"And through all the fear and stress your the only person I could think of" I said  while wiping my tears but more and more just started pouring down my face.

Mattia:"I'm so fucking  sorry what can I do to help you get through this, ill help you press charges I'll Help  you kill him I'll do anything"

Vanessa:"just hold me for now please"
We cuddled back into bed and slowly started to fall asleep with dried up tears on my face. Falling asleep into mattias chest made me feel so safe.

Life is so perfect around him, he always makes me feel so much better with just his presence.

I'm not sure if I will press charges but I think I should. How will I even tell my dad , how will I explain to them.

I wake up at 3 am and walk into mattias bathroom. I looked at myself in his mirror and just cried.
Mattia:"do you want a drink"
Vanessa:" shit sorry did I wake you"
He walks closer to me , looks me
In the eyes and wipes the tears off my face.
Mattia:"it's fine you can cry"
I fall into his arms and cry into his chest while hugging him in his bathroom. It was such a weird moment but it felt so good to have him with me.
I don't remember what happened next but I just remember waking up in mattias arms.

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It's 11 am and my dad must be worried sick. Mattia was dead asleep so I just sneaked out his house still wearing his hoodie. I walked back home thinking about wether I should tell my dad or not. I don't even know where my phone is I'm hoping kairi has it. I felt a little
Less frozen today and I had to tell my story to my dad and to a judge.

I will press charges.