Mattia and the unexpected

Hurt

MATTIAS POV

Homiessss🤮

Vanessa🧚🏽 left

Kairi
??

Me
I fucked up
Big time

Alejandro
Don't tell me you hurt her again

Robert
What the fuck did you do this time bruh

Me
Jenifer asked to talk
And she sounded upset
So I met with her
Then she dragged me
To go eat with her
Next thing I know I'm on her insta story
Then Vanessa  and lily are infront of me
She was crying
I couldn't even look at her.

Kairi
Did you flirt with Jenifer

Alejandro
She has every right to
be mad at you bro

Me
I know she does i
I don't even fuck with Jenifer
Like that
The whole time I was pissed at her
But just as I started playing with her hands
Vanessa walked in.

Roshaun
Bruh why tf would you play with
Her hands

Me
So she could leave me the fuck alone
She. Wouldn't let me leave

Alejandro
Na you could've left you just didn't
Now Vanessa hella upset over you again
And you gunna have to apologise AGAin

Kairi
Who knows if she'll even listen
To you bro.

Robert
Thought you was done
Playing around
With girls man

Alvaro
Frr frr

Me
Ik guys ik
I am done with playing around
She's the only girl I had eyes on
The situation is just twisted up

Back to vanessas PoV
(Play song^^^ tehehe)

My phone was blowing up with the boys checking up on me and mattia trying to get me to call him but I just couldn't.

Shit,we wasn't even official or talking for long but this hurt so bad. My brothers were home so I couldn't even scream or cry loudly.

Mattia has hurt my feelings many times before but this hurt my heart. He played me. He made me feel special then went back to his ex. Who knows how long he's been seeing her AND me.

I wanted to reply to him and hear the story but am sure it's filled with lies upon lies.

2 days later
I haven't eaten properly in days, I've skipped school and haven't checked my phone except for when I reply to my brothers and dad as I keep my room locked.

I told them I'm in physical pain due to my period but I was really just hurting on the inside.

I got up and showered but when I came out I was startled by a boy standing beside my window.

Me:" wtf are you doing here"

Alejandro:"well you don't answer ur phone or come to school so my only way to talk to you is sneaking in through your window"

Me:"ale I rlly don't wanna talk about him or anything, I'm fine please just go"

Alejandro:"you sure you don't wanna watch a film together"

Me:"it's fine honestly you don't have to pitty me"

Alejandro:"I'm not, I'm bored and I'm skipping school today so why not"

Me:"fine" I said with a smile

We ordered pizza and watched some episodes of money heist.

Me:"thanks ale but next time use the door"
Ale:"the window is so much quicker"
Me:"well I came out the shower so imagine if I came out without clothes on"

Ale:"ik you and mattia are over right now but moving on to me isn't the best idea"

Me:"omg shutup you know what I meant" I say while punching his arm and laughing

Me:"hows u and lily"

Ale:"still on a break but it's for the best plus we'll get back soon I know it"

Me:"I know it too"

Alejandro:"I know you said you didn't wanna talk bout him but can I atleast show you his messages explaining what happened"

Me:"there's no explaining, he played me just like every other girl"

Alejandro pulled his phone out and showed me the messages. I was relieved that him seeing her was a one time thing but he still flirted with her.

Me:"well it makes sense now but he still flirted with her and just like you said he could've left"

Ale:"yeah he's stupid like that sometimes but trust me, you mean a lot to him"

Me:"I hope so"

Alejandro:"you think you can forgive him"
Me:"I like him too much not too but I don't wanna see him for now"

Alejandro:"simp"
Me:"you cant even talk shutup"

We laugh and chill for the rest of the day.

It still hurt that he chose to stay when he could've left or he could've chose not to flirt with her or even see her. 

My thoughts immediately drowned me and I was out on the street walking. It was 7pm so it was quite dark but I didn't Care I just needed to get some fresh air.

I snuck out through my window so nobody knows I'm not home. Being with Alejandro made me fill better but my thoughts just ruin me.

"Maybe I mm worthless?
I didn't mean shit to him
He will continue to hurt me and I will continue to forgive him"

That's all my thoughts were full off. I will never be good enough for him to stop hurting me.