Broken Labels

chapter 34

I was livid and embarrassed how could he talk to her behind my back I still hasn't forgiven her.  A grudge was petty but I wasn't ready to let it go.  S" I'm doing this for us!  For us!".   Me" I heard you the first time!  I don't need her help!  I can have a baby with you there's no reason why I can't ".    He got up and paced the hospital room,  his heart was in the right place and I knew he wasn't meaning any harm.  But deep in my mind all I could think about was,  the second she lays eyes on her baby,  she will back out.  And then what?  We tried for nothing she's happy with Jared, kid and all. I'm left without a child to love and care for.  Me" we can have a child Shannon, you and me.".     He turned around and came back to me giving me an intense stare.  S"no, we can't. Your unable to bare children. I want a child,  this is the only way we will.".    Me" ok fine!  Go fuck her have a baby be happy together ".   S" is that what you think?  Really? That I wanna leave you and be with her?  You are messed up! ".  Me" well I see the way you guys are ".   He punched a wall and became furious.  S" your making shit up!  I'm not in love with her nor will I ever be!  You need to really think before you make accusations against me ".    Me" whatever,  I'm gonna call a cab and go home ".    I sat up to get dressed and he grabbed my hand.  Me" let me go,  isn't your woman waiting for you?".    S" stop!  ".   I pulled my hand away and accidentally slapped his face.  Me " oh god Shannon I'm sorry".    He held his face and looked at me as a tear dropped to his sleeve.  S" so am I ".   And I stood there as he walked out the door leaving me. By myself.  Maybe I went to far this time. What if he doesn't come back.