Mostly Roman Sanders oneshots{Requests open}

The voices in his head

Me deflecting on Roman? What? No. Never...I'm good fahm.

Takes place after Putting Others First. Everyone is unsympathetic but not...
Roman is unsympathetic to himself...? It's weird...
Roman's voice in his head that tells him what is wrong with him is underlined. The other voice in his head that tells him he's invalid is in italics

TW: Attempted self harm, eating disorder(Not really but a bit), and not using pillows and blankets correctly. A crap ton of self-depreciation,provably not ending happily. Feeling hopeless, worthless, angry, and numb,thinking about suicide. Character death. Accidental suicide.

(Wow lots of triggers I know,I'm trying to make you cry. Comment or vote if I did. Also tell me if I need to add more TWs.)

Roman POV

I sinks down. My mind racing.

I'm not good enough. I know I'm not. I can't even do third grade math correctly. I'm not good enough,I'm not good enough,I'm not good enough,I'm not good enough.

I just let the thoughts race threw my head agreeing with everyone.

Stupid?

Yep.

Worthless?

Yep.

Is it hopeless?

Very much so.

Cut yourself

I tried. I was too weak. Even so I would only get yelled at.

Kill yourself

I can't do that. They might actually miss me sooner or later.

Roman! Get yourself together. You are okay. You have a family who cares about you, you have a kingdom, you aren't going through anything wrong.

There is no reason why you are thinking like that.

You only want attention

You DON'T feel this way. Now apologize to Janus
Okay. Okay.
I go to Janus's room and knock.
Janus: Who isn't there?
Roman: It's Roman.
Janus opens the door.
Janus: Don't come in.
Roman: I just wanted to say sorry. You're name isn't stupid at all and sorry I laughed.
Janus: No thank you. You aren't forgiven. Is that not it?
Roman: Yeah. Bye.

I let out a sigh of relief. I go downstairs to get something to eat.

You know you shouldn't be eating, right? Your to fat for it. Besides it's only a snack. How many calories are you eating a day,4000?
But my natural instincts kicked in and was already pulling things out of the fridge.
Yeah, eat it then puke it up.
I already tried that once and my throat burned for hours.

Why would you do that? You can't feel that way! What are you going to say now? You have depression? No! You're fine.

I just growl a bit and and conjure some bluep headphones. Turning on music to drown out the thoughts.

(Time Skip to night time )

Despite the music blasting in my headphones my thoughts ring in my head. The bad the ones then the ones that tell me how my feelings are unimportant. I bury my head into my pillow. I can't breathe well so it takes my energy to focus on breath instead of the bad things. It hurts a bit but it takes away the thoughts. So it's fine.

After 30 minutes
I'm seriously uncomfortable and not falling asleep. I lift my head out of pillow but holding my breath. I wrap a blanket around my head. It's more convenient like this. The thoughts are gone. That's-That's good.

In the middle of the night
I wake up. I lay down and listen to the music going through my headphones.

In the morning
I woke up three other times that night/morning.
Part of me thinks to tell my family. No,last time I did that they brushed it off as me being over dramatic.
And they're right. You are fine. You are attention seeking. Do. Not. Tell. Them.
I won't.

Third POV
And he doesn't. Taking it out on his pillows and blankets.

One year later
Patton knocks on Roman's door. No answer. The fatherly side walks into the room. Feeling a bit surprised when it was messy. Roman had trouble working in messes. He sees Roman wrapped up in blankets but not on his legs. Patton undos the blankets to wake him up.
Patton: Roman? Time to wake up.
No movement.
Patton: Roman? I'm only gonna count to three. One,two,eff it (Comment if you got the reference.)
Patton went to tickle Roman awake but he was surprisingly cold. His chest was moving awfully slow too. His face is relaxed. Curious he checks for a heart beat. Not hearing one Patton screams a loud ear piercing scream.
Because

Roman Sanders killed himself

But...

What they will soon find out...

It was on accident.

Was it angsty enough? Nah probably garbage. Should I make a part two? Any requests? Please I'm bored all the time,I have nothing better to do with my life.

Guess what?

I didn't cry.