I wish I knew

I know this feeling

Amy and Noah finished their practice for today at NKE Melody while Niya came to pick her kids up she took a seat talking to kami about life and how things are going. Kami noticed that Niya had sparkle in her eyes while talking about the officer that works with her "oh my god you like him don't you" talking about Mr Sweeft "oh shut up I don't he is a pain in the ass we always fight" "well they say if you have someone to fight everyday know that you can't go without them" kami said while Niya looked down than said "alright he went off for a week because he was sick and I lost it.. I started asking about him and doing stupid shit" "that's what love make you do dear" kami said tapping on Niya's lap, "I don't wanna tell the kids unless it's all true.." "I get it yeah.. keep it low untill it's time to flow" kami said with a wide smile saying goodbye to the kids and her friend.

Niya lost her husband few months ago and seeing her recover that way made kami happy, it's true you can't forget someone but you can't keep holding up you must move on at some point, she looked at her friend and she has hope that life can be sweet sometimes, she has been trough a tough break up her self so she knows what kind of pain that is. Luckily for her she had the best mates ever and they were there for each other.

Kami was closing the door behind her to head home.. suddenly her phone rang she picked up "hey this is kami!" "Yes where.. who are you" "your friend had a car accident and I called the first number I can see" kami hanged up "oh my god EDA!" She ran to her car drove fast enough calling Niya and telling her what happened, kami got in the hospital running to the reception asking what room she's in, few minutes later Niya followed her and Eda's family was there too "oh my darling Eda" Miss Moonrack said crying while Alex gave her a hug, Eda's father was going back and forth losing his mind "I must find who ever did this" "what Happened exactly Alex" kami asked "someone wanted to take revenge from me and Eda was the best was to get to me god damnit" her father said "is it that bad" Niya looked at Alex with ears in her eyes "the car was fully damaged she got a strong hit on her head and lost alot of blood" "oh my god" kami said holding her head.. they waited for quite bit of time before the doctor got out telling them that she lost a lot of blood and she needed who is ready to give her some "I will take my blood I'll Donate" kami said without thinking "what's your blood type?" The doctor asked "I'm O, O+" "we could use that.. go with the nurse and she will take care of you".

Kami was sick and she was hiding that from the doctors because if they knew she can't give her blood, the nurse took the blood out of kami and Niya was with her.. "kami are you okay" "I'm fine it's just a little bit of dizziness" " you sure?" She said holding kami's face " you look tierd" "keep it low Niya she needs me and I will do anything for her including giving my blood" kami said with a serious look on her face "okay we are done.. he is some sweet candy to eat it will help you recover" the nurse said before heading out with the bag of the blood.. kami was really scared that she would lose Eda.

Hours later the family was waiting at the door when the doctor came out saying that she's fine now and she will be up in few only 2 people can see her.. "kami.. you will come with me" Miss Moonrack said kami nodded, they got inside the room sat down and kami held Eda's hand feeling how cold it was "is this okay she's so cold!" "She asked worried.. "she's okay now and thanks to you kami.. you always been there for her..that's why she loved you" "I love her too" Eda said "not the way you think kami" "what do you mean" kami asked "we sometimes be too blind to see things clear" she said before getting up "I'll go get some coffee you stay with her". Miss Moonrack closed the door and left the girls alone.

Kami and Niya spent the night sleeping in Eda's room.
Kami was near her bed holding her hand sleeping untill she feels a move "Eda!" She said "hey.. I.." "no no don't say anything save your energy" kami said with tears in her eyes "I thought I would lose you!" She said.. "I'm sorry" "Eda! Oh my god girl you scared us" Eda smiled back "how are you feeling" "I'm in pain" she replied to kami, "they served you some morphine for the pain" Niya said "I wish I can have some sure you don't need it your a badass" the laughed about that "Niya can never be serious".. they kept talking while kami was watching Eda in bed with more scars now thinking of how beautiful she looked and at her mom's words "sometimes we are too blind.." "hey! You okay" Eda asked "yeah I'm just tierd" "I'm sorry guys I got you into this.." Niya stopped her from saying that "kami gave you blood today that's why she's off" "what! But kams you can't you're.." "no there is nothing i can't do to save you, you would do the same for me" she said holding her hand and kissing it which made Eda relax..

The doctor came in checked up on Eda and told her she's free to go in two days.

Dayes went by and Eda got better, the girls were at her house for dinner, kami cooked that night and they enjoyed it "you never told us your a chef kams" Niya said teasing her "well now you know it" Eda was happy everyone was after all pain things got better at the end of it all they still had hope. Niya had to go back home because the kids need her "what about you kami?" Eda asked her "I will .." "can you stay for the night.. please" Eda asked with puppy eyes "I don't wanna stay alone" "you should kami don't leave her alone people can kill her" "hey stop it" kami said pushing Niya playfully.. "okay I'm staying" "YAY!" Eda said screaming.. "okay you guys I'm going" Niya kissed the girls and said "see you tomorrow" she closed the door leaving kami and Eda sitting on the couch.

They were watching TV and eating popcorn untill kami snuggled in Eda arms "it's okay if I laid on you right? Your not in pain anymore!" Eda played with her hair smiling "no this is perfect". All they did four 2 hours is watching series untill it was bed time.
The girls went to the bed room and they slept in the same bed.. kami couldn't stop her mind from wondering and from questioning and stressing "this feeling.." she was looking at Eda while she was reading a book "I know this feeling.. not first not last.. it always hurts me up when I look at Eda doing her own thing.. I love looking at her" "what is it Kam?" Eda asked smiling "why your zoned out.. you okay?" "Uh am.. yeah" she replied stressed "I'll bring glass of water" "ookay!" Eda said with a what was that look on her face.. "shit I can't tell her and it started showing on me" "you okay kami? You didn't come back to bed" "I'm fine I just.." "kami I know you.. you have something on your mind tell me what is it" holding kami's face Closer to her to make sure she's looking directly to her eyes.. "I.." "mhhm?" Eda replied "it's just a random stress thing you know I have it" "it's okay I get it" "let me make you something to drink and than we can go back to bed okay!" "You're the best" kami said smiling weakly.

Kami started to realize that she might been blind for real like Miss Moonrack said, maybe Eda was infront of her all the time and she was too busy pushing others away and living inside her bubble of pain that she couldn't see clear, but kami was scared of love now she just can't stand the idea of it, but the way Eda smiled and her voice was just a blessing, her eyes were heaven's doors and she always liked that, but this time it was a Whole level "I love her" she said looking at Eda "I love being around her and .. is it wrong? I don't even know if she has feelings for me or if she even still has them" she thought to her self when the cup of the hot drink was ready "here" Eda said "I'm sorry you are the sick one I should take care of you now look who's taking care of who" kami said looking at her "you are by being by my side kami.. finish it and let's go to bed" kami smiled drank her drink and went to bed sleeping next to Eda "I will enjoy this as long as it lasts".

The morning arrived and kami had to go to work, Eda was still recovering "we'll see you later than Eda you stay home take care of you" "home it is" Eda said annoyed "I just wanna go out I'm fine" kami laughed at how cute Eda looked while annoyed "sure we will take you out tonight get ready" "you and Niya?" "No just me and you.. Niya is busy with the kids it's exams phase now" "ugh pain in the ass I'm glad Im done with school" they laughed at that "I know right"she added "anyways see you tonight"
Kami went out and Eda made herself cup of tea sat on the couch looking outside the window along with her dog Max, it was a peaceful morning after all.