Haikyuu X Reader One-Shots

Hoshiumi Kourai - Fault

"I'm so sorry!" You say, tears running down your cheeks. "I really am!"

"I can't believe this, (Y/N)!" Hoshiumi shouts, angry. His eyes were sharp as he looked at you. "You cheated on me. You're a... a.... Arrgg!" He groans as he slaps his cheek, unable to call you anything.

You look down, clutching your hands. "I'm sorry..." Those were the only words you were able to utter.

"For how long has this been going on?!" He shouts again and you try hard not to flinch. You had never seen him so angry and it was the first time he talked that way with you.

But he had his reasons.

"T-There isn't a thing!" You try to explain, wiping your tears. But they just kept falling."Today was the first time we kissed. And last!" You quickly add.

His eyes pierced through you. "Why the hell did that happen? I thought we were okay!"

You stay quiet, unable to say anything back. You expressions saddens as you look at him.

His eyes widen and he blinks. "...We weren't?"

You look down, gripping your skirt. "T-There's no excuse to what I have done but... I was just feeling so lonely. I know that isn't-"

"What do you mean, 'lonely'?" He interrupts you. "You never said anything to me."

You force yourself to look at him since he deserved an explanation. You take a deep breath. "You were so focused on your practice for the Nationals... You were always busy and I-"

"I had told you that practice would turn longer." He interrupts you again. "And that I would compensate you after!"

"But I needed you then and not after!" You yell, suddenly feeling angry. You wipe your tears again. "I had a terrible week and you didn't even notice! I know you were busy and I understood and decided to say nothing because I didn't want to worry you!"

Hoshiumi stares at you, silent, but you knew his mind was bubbling with thoughts.

You continue. "It happened a few weeks ago, that terrible week. I had a bad grade, my cat fell ill, my parents were arguing. Now everything is okay but I felt so desperate and lonely back then." You look at the ground. "I tried to disguise what I was feeling and I managed to fool everyone, even you."

You couldn't hide the tone of hurt form you voice by the fact he didn't notice something was wrong with you.

"And then Hiroshi came and asked if everything was okay... And I broke, I told him everything. He has been my friend for a long time and nice person so I felt confident in telling him those things. The attention he gave me, his kind eyes... was just so good."

You stop, ashamed for having those kind of thoughts for someone who was not your current boyfriend.

"Continue." Hoshiumi says harshly.

You take another deep breath. "Since then, we walked from school together and talked about various things and he grew on me. He is honest and kind and good. I missed having someone who wouldn't' mind hearing my troubles, no matter how foolish they were."

"Today, he confessed he had a crush on me for a long time. I was so surprised and I didn't react when he kissed me."

"I saw you kissing him back." Hoshiumi says, trying to calm down.

"I did, after the initial shock." You confess, even more ashamed. "I had missed that warmth, that type of touch. The feeling of being... cared."

Hoshiumi clutches his fists and takes several deep breaths. You look at him, nervous, as you fidget.

"Do you love him?" He asks, looking straight into your eyes.

"I don't." You answer sincerely. "But I can't say he's indifferent to me."

It almost looked as if Hoshiumi would have preferred that you had lied. He grips his hair, not knowing what to do.

You force your next words to come out. "If you want to break up with me... I understand."

"B-Break up?!" Hoshiumi quickly looks back at you, looking perplexed and shocked. As if that thought had never crossed his mind before.

You blink, surprised he didn't consider it. "W-Well, I did cheat on you... I broke the confidence you had in me. How can you still accept me after that?"

"Do you want to break up?"

You stay quiet for a moment, considering your next words. "I don't. But I don't think it's fair for you to be with someone who also has a soft spot for another person."

Hoshiumi stares hard at you and you gulp, nervous.

"I'm sorry." He says quietly.

"Sorry?" You repeat, amazed. "Why are you sorry?"

He runs his hand through his hair. "Because I was a bad boyfriend. I wasn't there when you needed me and I didn't even notice something was wrong. I'm supposed to make you happy, not the other way around."

You clutch your hands, feeling confused. "It was not your fault. You were busy with the tournament and I understood that. You love volleyball and-"

"And I also love you."

You take a sharp breath, shocked. It was the first time he told you those words.

You feel tears running down your cheeks. "How can you say that after what I did?! I was terrible and evil and... and..."

"I have not forgiven you." He explains, taking a few steps toward you. "This situation is still too fresh on my mind and I'm not good enough to forgive you right away. But..." He touches your cheek, lifting your face to meet him. "That does not change the fact that I love you. Why else would I be so mad?"

You were pretty sure you were very ugly, with tears on your cheeks, a red nose and an occasional sob. But even so, you still didn't divert your eyes from him.

"I-I don't d-deserve this..." You manage to say, feeling guilty from his sympathy.

"Maybe you don't. But the truth is that I was also at fault here." He admits, wiping your tears away gently. His eyes were sad and hurt; but there was also a bit of hope in them. "And this my decision."

You look down, still feeling that you were not worthy of his comforting words.

"With time," Hoshiumi continues and you look up. You blush slightly at the intensity of his gaze. "I'll make you only think of me, (Y/N)."