Me, My Shrink And Lisa

Session 10: Where'd you go? I miss you so...

When I get home, after school, Jason is sitting in the front entrance, apparently waiting for me.

– Noah. – He says as I pass by him without saying a word, making me stop – How was it today?

– I talked about how bad and awful I feel. It was great.

He stands up and I turn around to face him.

– Come on Noah.

– What do you want me to tell you? "Uh, it was nice. It helped me a lot. I didn't panic and I even forgot that Lisa ended up done and left and I can't blame her because I'm done with me too. It turned out to be great, you know, remembering all those things..."

– I just want you to tell me the truth.

– You are not my friend, you hear me? I tried to kill myself five times. Failed all those times. People tried to kill me trice. Also failed. No one cared about it except Lisa, and Oliver, if he knew. And you, now. Thank you, by the way, for keeping me alive when I specifically didn't want to. One of my best friends died, the other went away because he had to, and the other became one of the people who tried to kill me and the girl I fucking love disappeared before I could tell her how I feel. That's the truth.

I then get in the house and head to the kitchen.

– Are you okay...? – Maira says as she sees me getting in the kitchen. I don't answer and head to the fridge to take a bottle of water – He's still outside, isn't he?

– Like a rock.

I storm to my room and locked the door behind me. I sigh and look at the window. For I moment I think I see Lisa but then I blink several times and shake my head and she disappears. Not for long though because someone knocks my door and when I say "identify yourself, tell me what you want then go away", the person says...

– Lisa.

I hesitate but then open the door and she simply looks at me.

– What happened to you? – I ask – Where have you been? Why did you disappear like that?

– I'm sorry... – I wait for something more but then realize that that's it.

– You're sorry? That's all? I don't want to know if you're sorry, I want to know if you're okay... I've been worrying sick! I even went to the police!

– I know...

But then I realize that she's not looking at me.

– Lisa...? What happened? Tell me...

She hugs me and starts to cry. Not knowing what to do, I rub her hair and tell her "it's okay, I'm here..."

– I'm so sorry, Noah! I didn't mean to! I just couldn't help it...

– First tell me what happened to you...

She pushes me inside and closes the door.

– I panicked. – She whispers.

– Why are you whispering?

– Because I panicked.

– Why did you panic? – I whisper too.

– Because I went to the hospital and saw you all swollen and purple and I knew that there was nothing I could do... – I simply stare at her – I felt like I failed you...

– Are you kidding me?! You? Fail me? – She sighs.

– I'm sorry...

– Stop being sorry... – I sit at my bed and she sits beside me and puts her head on my shoulder – I missed you, that's all.