What does it takes to be a flower - (Flower Series No. 1)

9

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Kabanata 9

Taffy

"Water." napabalik ako sa sarili at tinignan ang nakalahad nyang mga kamay.

When he notice that I was just staring at it, di na nya inantay pang maabot ko yun dahil hinila nya ang kamay ko at nilagay roon ang water bottle.

I was following my gazed to him ng maupo sya sa tabi ko at habang diretsyo sa harap nakatingin.

Iniwas ko ang tingin ko ng naramadaman nya iyon.

"You can go..." bulong kong pagtataboy.

Remembering how he see me earlier wants me to be just swallowed.

Seeing me weak makes me feel, horrible.

Maybe he was thinking how petty I am.

and the fact that he is the one to witness that makes me more horrible. Of all people, why him?

Nang tumayo sya ay akala ko aalis na sya na ikakaluwag na sana ng hininga ko, ngunit hindi. He just stand there and look a far.

Mas malalim ang iniisip. Maya maya ay bumaling sya saakin kong kayat nagtama ang mga mata namin.

"You should drink that." a minutes later I was trying to look at the bottle he handed. Tinatanaw ko iyon na parang di ko alam kong pano buksan dahil sa pag katulala.

When he probably noticed that I was just staring it ay mabilis nyang nakuha iyon at binuksan bago inabot. "Drink it." he ushered.

"If I drink that, it would just add more tears to my eyes.." I whispered against myself at pinakatitigan iyon.

I feel dehydrated at parang iniyak ko na ata lahat, if I afford to drink those, I'm afraid it will possible na iiyak ko rin.

gusto ko nalang tawanan ang sarili dahil sa pag iisip nang kung anong theorya.

Di ko rin alam kung narinig nya ba iyon dahil binawi nya at sinirado uli. He probably heard it when I look at him, he abruptly looked away, maybe couldn't handle my pettyness over the bottle of water.

I hate people who gaves me sympathy. I hate people being nosy in my problems.

Kasi you dont need to tell them your problems, you would not know they had theirs to handle too. Asking for them to care was a big burdensome, imbis na problema lang nila ang isipin nila isasawsaw mo pa at isasali yung sayo.

That was I hate the most.

A mimutes of silence when everybody's back. Medyo nagulat pa sila Mauris to find that Tylo was here while the boys just giving a knowing looks to each other.

Umiwas nalang ako ng tingin at di nalang ito mga pinansin sa mga mapanudyong tingin.

I wasn't in right mind even we got home and waited for a bus. Pinapanood ko lang ang river na may magagandang ilaw, If maybe I was in the right mood I would take a picture of the nice view, its magical. The yellow light reflected beautifully on the water. It gave a lot of comfort at me. Forgetting what happenes earlier.

Habang maiingay ang mga kasama ko ay tahimik ko namang itong pinagmamasdan, hoping it will relieved my inside thought. Until when I noticed that someone is watching me, kaya napalingon ako sa gilid ko.

He immediately look upfront as if I didn't caught him watching awhile. I snorted a little at the awkwardness it made.

I was silently nodding sideways in my mind. Mas nag aalala pa ata sya sa akin. Maybe out of sympathy?