No Matter How Far I Run, I Will Always Find You

odd bruises

if ya wanna listen to the music for this chapter feel free...🥺👉🏼👈🏼 it's astronaut by simple plan...it kinda fits the story? ig?

kody's pov~
i decided to break the silence. i have to apologize to lumine, making him feel worse. i got up from my bed and started for his room when my dad came out. "hey, kody. what're you up to?" he said. "nothing," i mumbled. i walked past him and knocked on lumine's room. the door opened and a cheerful lumine grinned at me. "hey, kody!" he said. he had a short-sleeved shirt on with bandages covering his forearms. i was suspicious; why is he in such a good mood when we haven't talked for 32 hours? "why're you so happy?" i demanded. lumine looked at me and smiled sheepishly again. "i-i don't know what you're talking about, kody! anyways, do you wanna play something?" he asked, my question. again. i followed him to the tv, sitting down on the couch and watched him as he popped super smash into the PS4. he gave me a controller and sat down next to me. we played (awkwardly) for an hour (i won) before i had to break the silence. "why are you being like this?" i faced lumine. "uh....what?" i facepalmed myself. "lumine! stop pretending! are you really fine?" he cocked his head to the side. "what're you saying, kody?" "stop playing with me! we've been avoiding each other for almost two days! what the hell?! i'm sorry if i made you mad," i said. "nah, it's fine. i'm not mad," lumine said, getting up and grabbing an apple. he took a big bite. yeah, right. you're never mad.

~lumine's pov~
i hated when kody kept asking me questions...i couldn't tell him. i decided to just keep it to myself, crying it all out at night. i wanted to tell him...but i was too scared. and the worst part is, i lie to my therapist aiden got me. i told her i was feeling better and i just had a weird thing triggering my mind and couldn't get rid of it. but honestly, it was all a lie, thinking kody hates me and not being enough for anyone. i secretly cut myself in my room at night when i'm in bed, under my covers.

~the morning~
~kody's pov~
"wake up!" i heard a voice outside my room. "ugh...yeah, yeah, coming," i grumbled, pulling myself out of bed and pulling my shirt off. i was about to pull on a light blue t-shirt, glancing at my arms. i froze. i had bruises covering my whole body. but how did i get those? i don't remember doing anything to get these! they didn't even hurt. i threw on a white long sleeved shirt and pulled the blue t-shirt over it. i peeked at my legs, which also had large bruises. i pulled on my boxers and then black jeans. i pulled on white socks and black converse and ran downstairs.

~lumine's pov~
i saw kody walk in, eyeing his clothing. "kody...it's almost summer," i reminded him. he sat down at the table and rested his cheek on one hand, resting on the table. "so?" he said in his usual monotone voice. "well...it's gonna be hot, you know," i said. i put the bacon and eggs i made on two plates, handing one to kody. he silently ate, which was unusual as he makes some small talk. i put our dishes in the sink and pulled my black converse on. "let's go," i told kody. he nodded and followed me out. "what's wrong?" i asked. kody looked away. "nothing." i rolled my eyes to myself. "of course it's nothing. i won't get mad. what is it?" i asked again. "ugh! why should i tell you? you never tell me any of your problems!" he finally exploded, running the rest of the way to school. i watched after him in shock. "kody!" i yelled after him. but he didn't listen.

~kody's pov~
ugh, i did it again! i yelled at lumine...i'm so sick of being mean. i have no fucking idea what's happening to me. i just feel emotionally tired and weak. i should've told him. but he wouldn't believe it. is calla bullying you again?  he'd say. but i really don't know how they appeared. it's really a mystery.

~lumine's pov~
should i go after him? he's probably pissed, so i'll just wait i guess. but it's true i never trusted him with my issues. it's not that i didn't trust him...i...i guess i thought he had so many of his own problems to worry about. i never wanted to hurt him by keeping secrets from him.