Avani & Anthony

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skipping sometime since last chapter!

avani's pov

"i'll be gone for 2 months, on tour. the sway boys and i leave in a few weeks. buy your tickets to come see us!" anthony says while on live. what the fuck? no this can't be real. he didn't even tell me before. i watch his live a little upset. "ok i'm ending it here, bye guys. thank you." anthony finishes his live. i gets facetime call from him. i can't right now.

i pace all around my lonely apartment. i.. i want to be happy for anthony but he never told me and he just like forgot about me. i want to be happy for ant but he didn't think to inform me about this? i throw my phone across the apartment. fuck. i walk into my bathroom. i start the shower. i do my best thinking in there.

in the shower, all i could think about is anthony. how he calls us a team and tells me to tell him when something is wrong but when some big news like tour is announced he doesn't tell me. i feel like he should have told me when the idea came up. am i stressing this to much? am i being overly dramatic? is this my fault? do i never let him express his feelings or talk?

in the midst of my thoughts, hear a knock. on the bathroom door? who could it be? mom and priya are back in indiana.. maybe amelie or anthony? the front door was locked. "come in?" i ask questioning. i peek through the curtain and see anthony enter into the bathroom. great just who i wanted to see.

"hi baby." he says so simply, like nothing is happening. i don't respond. he walks over closer to the shower. i get back to washing my hair. "avani." he says as stands outside the shower. i still don't respond. "if you don't respond, i'm coming in." he warns me. do i want him in the shower with me? kind of.

"hey." i say. i need to get out soon anyways. "that's it, ok you finish in the shower. i'll be on your bed." he answers and leaves the bathroom. fuck. i finish showering, then i get out and put on sweatpants and crop top. put my hair in a messy bun and put moisturizer on my face. i inhale deeply then i walk out of my bathroom.

i see anthony laying on my bed, on his phone. he notices me and sits up and puts his phone down. "hi beauty." he says as he opens his arms to hug me. i don't walk over to him. i look at him. "what's wrong?" he asks looking me in my eyes. i feel like balling my eyes out. i want to curl up in a ball and shut down and block everyone away. anthony stands up and walks over to me. i step away, until i am against the wall. anthony stops.

"avani, talk to me." he says trying to grab my hand. i pull my arm away. "what?" he asks me, he looks so annoyed. "you didn't think to tell me about tour?" i say. he looks speechless. "you told all of your fans before me. your girlfriend! did i even cross your mind when you found out? do you even think about me?" i let loose, all of my emotions come flooding out. anthony still looks speechless. "when did you find out?" i ask him. "2 weeks ago." he mumbles. i can't even look at him. "so i didn't cross your mind." i say as i storm out of my room.

"avani wait." he stops me. i turn around and look at him. "you did, and i think about you everyday. i.. i just didn't know how to tell you." he stumbles across his words. "anthony, i am so happy for you that you get to go on tour. but i would have at least thought you out of all people would have told me personally." i say getting upset. anthony still says nothing. staring at him hurts.

"i'm going to my room." i say while brushing past anthony. i close the door to my room and walk over to my bed and lay down on my side. it's hard to breathe. what if i just stop breathing? would anyone care.

"avani. i love you. please talk to me." anthony says barging in my room. i sit up and look at him. "i already said everything." i say as i wipe away the tears from my cheeks. "i was scared to tell you, i don't want to leave you for 2 months." anthony expresses. "so what do you want to do?" i ask him. he shrugs. "what if we just end it here? no one gets hurt. you can go off on tour and be free." i suggest as tears just stream out of my eyes.