Adopted by Tony Stark

chapter 51

Y/n POV
I thought I would sleep peacefully but the mosquitoes decided to disturb my sleep. So there I laid at 4 am awake and tired.

I decided to get something to eat I sneaked out of my room. And took a bowl of cereal with me back to my room.

I felt guilty for eating because I wasn't really hungry it was just boredem. So after that 1 bowl I got back into my nice constant depressive state. I laid awake for the rest of the night.

Steve POV
I woke up to get ready for my morning run.

I saw that y/n her lights were on she probably forgot to turn them off

My morning run like always was awesome. Seeing other people running walking their dogs and just enjoying life.

Y/n POV
My eyelids were heavy and my body felt like lead. But I did make my way into the bathroom and took a shower.

After I ate my breakfast i was already in the garage ready to go to school. That's when I got a message from peter that read.
"Can we study together for the finals"
I got immediately some anxiety and texted back
"Don't tell me the finals are this week"
"They are next week honey, did you study?"
"Uhhmmm no comment"

That's when happy pulled up and I got in. I was tapping with my feet and my head was thinking of worst case scenarios.

I am pretty smart I guess I don't know. If I fail the finals I won't go to MIT and my dad will be disappointed. I'll live on the streets.

And before I knew it I was at school. Getting out of the car was a whole task on its own. When I stood there infront of the school my whole body fely heavy. My breath was getting heavier and I felt like I was going to faint.

That's when someone jumped or nearly jumped on my back
"Heyyy y/n" that was peter, and he gave a kiss on my cheek. He saw that I was just staring at the entrance of the school.
"Are you okay??"
"Uhm yeah yes I am" and I shook myself out of my trance and went back to autopilot.

We walked through the entrance and talked about my ability to forget when we had our finals.

All the classes focused on practicing for the finals. But all I could do was worry and right now I was getting kinda sick of my own head.

This day was extremely long and exhausting so when I got home I immediately went to my bed and had an amazing 2 hour long nap.

Tony POV
I have been on the phone with someone all morning just so I know that everything will be perfect. Only thing I have to do now is talk to y/n so she can help me.

I stood there infront of her room knocked and walked in. She woke up from her nap and looked at me confused.
"What's up dad you never come to my room?"
"Uhmm well I need your help"
"Wait... what did you do? I ain't cleaning anything alright"
"No..no it has something to do with steve"
"Wait with steve??" I saw her thinking for a second then it was like something lit up in her head.

"Wait.. don't tell me you're gonna" I knew what she was gonna say so I nodded.
"YOU'RE GONNA PROPOSE"
"Ssssst jesus not everyone has to hear it"
"Owhh sorry" she said in a whisper

"Have you got plans already how are you gonna do it?"
"Uhmm I do have the ring but don't know how I'll do it yet"
"Can I see the ring!?" She said bouncing on her bed

And I showed her the photo:

Y/n Was excited so that was good.

Y/n POV
I can't believe he's going to ask Steve to marry him I'm so excited!

But now came the moment I had to learn for my finals. And immediately my sad mood came back. Learning it's the most boring thing that exists literally. It's just practicing and reading.

So I started with biology because I kinda liked that subject. I started but my mind just couldn't shut up with doom scenarios.

What if I fail
What if they find me stupid
...

And those what ifs kept coming into my head that eventually I started crying. I hit my head with my hand so that mabye the thoughts would go away but they didn't.

I felt so stupid to not being able to do a stupid task like learning.

I decide to take a nap because mabye after a nice rest I'll be able to learn. But that wasn't true I just couldn't. So instead I decided to clean up my room. Because everything is better then learning right?

Dinner was good well the food could be better but what did you expect when dad makes dinner.

My last attempt on learning was after dinner I finally did it but then I stumbled upon something that I just didn't understand, I tried but I just couldn't understand it. Out of frustration I threw my book and started crying.

How pathetic am I.

Throughout the night my hopelessness and sadness became to much for me. So I went to the bathroom and decided to hurt myself. When I saw the red droplets I began to feel calmer.

But afterwards I felt bad again. I decided to bandages myself up and hopefully tomorrow will be better.

A/n
Sorry for not writing a lot I've been put in a pshyc ward. But I'll try my best to write more.