The tale of Feawen

Chapter 9- the blue wizards

A week later, we finally reached the end of the river Celduin. We decided to go in direction of the sea Rhún thus it was said that there would be the castle of the two blue wizards.

While traveling, we now talked more. He told me everything about his adventures; I already knew them, but it was great to hear them from his perspective. He let out the big fights of himself; I knew what he had managed, he was a good fighter and a perfect archer. But he was not like his father, so he did not even tell it. Our friendship was rebuilt; I could trust him again, and he seemed to trust me. He sometime asked me what the kingdom I came from would be like and I told him everything; about my childhood, about my family and about the sea town. We could open up to each other and that was something good. But he seemed to be overthinking just like me- and at some point, he asked me about his father.

"Do you like him?", he asked. I did not know who he meant, so he went on. "My father." Was he kidding? How could I still like his father? He had told his son to spy on me- and that was something I would not forget in soon future. I just looked down at Límdú not wanting to overreact. But unfortunately he went on.

Legolas seemed to have thought a lot about it. "I have seen your face when he talked to you", he said with a calm voice. "My father.." "Are you serious?", I interrupted him. "Just because I am a woman you think that I fell for him? Yes, his beauty shines bright like the stories told but..". Now Legolas interrupted me, now curious. "So you like him?"

My god, what was he thinking? Just because someone is beautiful does not mean that you love them. Legolas was always wise and well-thinking but I could not know why he was acting that weird right now. "Las. I am sorry, but I dont like him. He wanted you to spy on me, to manipulate me for his advantage. He is no gentle nor kind king. He is your father but I am disappointed by him.. why do you even worry about that?" Now he looked at the ground. He was acting so weird and I did not get why- what was wrong with him? Why did he worry about his father? He went on. "Nothing.. I just.. wanted to know". The only word that I thought of was childish. Was he jealous? Did he really think I could be in love with his father? Thranduil was as old as my father.. and I did not trust Thranduil. I could not get over Legolas weird acting. Now a loud thrunderous rumble chimed from above. It did not rain but the sky quaked. Weird- it had been sunny the whole weak and now it just started rumbling? Later I would find out why...

The night later for me was a whole new level of weirdness. I did not know why I always sleepwalked- but this time, it was the worst. When I fell asleep, I had weird dreams, first about Mirkwood, and then about the forest we were staying at. And suddenly I dreamt of kissing Legolas- birds in the background. Wait- they sounded pretty real- as did the kiss. "Oh my god..", I whispered, letting go of the kiss, holding my hands in front of my lips. "I told you that you should wake me up if I would sleepwalk again!" What the hell was wrong with me? Did I yearn so much for kissing him that I went in dreams to him to kiss him? Apparently I could not fight my feelings anymore.. "I did not know you were sleepwalking", he said. And something said me he was telling me the truth; he somehow looked sad I had not kiss him like that for real. "How.. when.. did I stand up?" "A few minutes ago, you were talking to me and then you suddenly kissed me." Great. Was this getting weirder and weirder? Oh no.. said something to him? What had I told him?

"What. did I. tell you???", I asked him, afraid I could have told him everything. "You came to me and said that it was just a dream and that you must tell him. Did you mean me? If you were sleepwalking... and what do you have to tell me?" Great! What should I tell him? I had not told him anything but now he knew that I was thinking a lot. "Uhmm.. I think it would be the best if I go to sleep now", I replied. "I will tell you.. when the time is right." And embarassed I got back to my place. What was going on with me? I closed my eyes pretending to sleep, but I felt his eyes looking at me.
 

The next day, I saw that another one of the stones of my crown had faded. It took us a few days until we arrived at the castle of the blue wizards. Until the journey, the mood had gotten more strained again.

We arrived at a weird looking house in the middle of a half desert. One half  was built of black and the other of white wood. The roof was of yellow straw and it looked like a big, round hat. But yet it looked so abandoned, and I carefully opened the door. A big mess. We had stepped into a big, cryptic mess. There was dead silent, and on the bottom of the house, there were papers above papers, letters above letters and the cupboards were filled with magic potions, that could not look more poisonous.

Legolas and I looked at each other with the same, confused expression, and then continued to search any evidences for the life of the blue wizards, or some hint where they might have disappeared. Some letters that were written by Pallando to Saruman or Mithrandir, had never really been sent, and some that Allatar had received, had never been opened. The blue wizards were gone, and I hardly believed they would ever return to their home someday.