I Just Love You (A collection of Adommy one shots)

Chapter 46

[In Tommy's POV]

"Are you ready?" Adam's mom asked me.

"No." I laughed nervously.

"I can't believe that today is actually the day!" Leila said excitedly. "It's too bad that your mom can't come." She said sadly. Ever since my dad's death, I've just been kinda distant from my family. "I guess that I should let you finish getting ready." Leila kissed my cheek and left me in my room.

I can't believe that today is really the day. I can't believe that I'm really getting married. It feels so surreal. I love Adam so much! I put my coat on and buttoned it up. Today was one of those rare days where I liked the reflection in the mirror that looked back at me. A nice crisp suit, my hair fluffed to the side, just a little bit of makeup.

Thankfully, Adam let us have our wedding at our house. Kind of a house warming/wedding. I'm also kind of happy that Sauli isn't coming.

"Knock knock!" Mike said, coming in. Mike was in my old band before I knew Adam. Before I came out.

"Mike!" I ran over and hugged him. "It's bad luck to see the groom before the wedding, you know?" I joked.

"I thought that only applied to the bride. But hey, what's the difference?!" Mike laughed. I laughed along, not sure if that was an insult or not. I mean before I came out, I wouldn't have thought differently.

"I didn't think you'd come!" I said, shrugging off his last comment.

"Hey, once a brother, always a brother!" Mike pulled me into a hug again. "You know, honestly. I didn't think you'd get married to a guy. I didn't think you'd get married at all. I mean, you were always solo. I couldn't really see you with anyone. I guess I kinda knew that you were in the closet. Not that I have a problem with it!" He laughed, not sure if he was offending me or not. "But hey, it's your choice! What ever makes you happiest! I should let you get ready. Good luck TJ!" As Mike walked away, he shouted, "Callaghan man!"

As soon as he left, I collapsed on the floor. No, no. I can't have a panic attack now! I have to be at the alter in fifteen minutes! Oh god! What am I doing? What am I getting myself into!? My heart sped up and my eyes brimmed with tears. To be honest, I don't think that I could tell you that exact reason as to why I was having a panic attack.

With shaky hands, I tried to stand up. Instead, I doubled over on the floor. The world seemed to be spinning around me. Am I really ready to spend the rest of my life with a man? I'm only 31... My breathing became more and more jagged. It seemed like I couldn't move. I lay there, silently panicking. I tried to scream out for help, but it felt like my lungs were two plastic bags that the air had been squeezed out of. Someone help me...