DEAR JOURNAL

YEAR TEN PT 2

TW-harsh language, lost of mentions of death and violence.

It's Liz's birthday tomorrow and since she can't access the internet right now let's give her some nice birthday messages
-Alec
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Present day

Paranoia's pov

Dear journal,

Virgil was always writing in this book so I'm gonna leave a note for him. I don't actually hate you I just don't want you in my head and would rather that you go away. Ok that's enough of that blah blah blah. Ok let's get back to the drama.

I teleported to the castle where Dee and Dolin were staying. My plan is to join up with Dee and Dol so I can kill all of the annoying people. I also want to find a way to split me and V. I don't know if it would even be possible but I'm sick of having him in my head all the time. Dee will probably get me out of this god forsaken body. I mean I think it's hot but after last year this body is too broken and I am done with it. Virgil is just a scared little boy who is playing around with things he doesn't understand.

I walk into the castle and ignore the guards that try to stop me. Honestly it is so obvious where the people the light sides spend years looking for are. They are always in the castle in Princy's kingdom. They are all a bunch of morons. Also if Patton or Logan don't get married within the next two years I am finding a way to become human so I can drink a cup of bleach and end myself. They have been going out since Thomas was born or something I don't know I don't care. My ship needs to become canon. I make my way into the throne room and see Dee sitting on the throne with Dolin standing off to the right.

"Hello to all of the wonderful people in this room, and Dee and Dolin" I say while curtsying.

"Sup, I see you kicked the nerd out again is it gonna stay that way though?" Dee asks. Dolin hangs his head when he mentions Virgil.

"I am here to join up with some winners because I have been surrounded by losers all year, including the one that was hitching a ride in my head"

"Was?" Dolin asks, finally done looking at the spot he found on the floor.

"He isn't really here right now, I think the light sides finally broke him" Dolin lets out a soft gasp and Dee snaps his head too face him. Dolin goes back to looking at the floor.

"Good riddance, right Dolin!?" Dee snaps.

"W-what, oh yeah good riddance" he grumbles under his breath. You hear that, he misses you. Are you gonna stop being stubborn and come back now? You're not allowed to just leave me here alone come back idiot. I get no response from Virgil or any other random voices.

"Aww you miss little Virgie don't you" I say and dolin's eyes widen.

"No I don't miss him". Never mind I guess he doesn't miss you. No response. As much as I hate the idiot and I would much rather have him out of my head. Though I suppose I'm in his head...whatever. It makes being in bad situations easy. I can just switch out and bam! No longer my problem. If things go wrong here I'm gonna force a switch and that won't be pleasant for any of us.

"Yeah sure keep telling yourself that. Thank you by the way for completely and utterly destroying the kid. It was so much fun to watch him spiral into madness this year". I say while chuckling. Dolin looks unamused.

"Well thank you for gracing us with your presence, there is a room for you down the hall and to the left you can stay there" Dee says while snapping his fingers. The doors behind me open. I give the peace sign and walk out. Anytime now kid just say hi or something. 'Leave me alone' oh thank god I thought I was gonna have to deal with those idiots by myself. He still isn't visible but I can hear his voice and that means he is still here. So now if I get stuck in a sticky situation I can just switch then I can ignore it. Unless he gets himself killed then it is kinda my problem. 'I thought you didn't want me around' I don't but, you make my life easier. 'Great I'm being used again' kid I'm not gonna lie to you. Yes I am using you but if it makes you feel better it is purely because I need some sort of voice of reason in my life. 'Whatever' why are you being so helpless right now? Isn't that your thing. That you don't want to sit to the side lines. 'You don't know what I have gone through' news flash kid I am you. So get your ass back here and get some revenge. His small and fragile body pops up in front of me. You do that disappearing act again and I'll find the knife and stab myself. 'Whatever' this kid is gonna be the death of me. He is so fucking weak. I have got to find a way to split us.

We continue to walk and talk as we walk to the room. When I get there I look around. It looks just like the idiot's old room at the dark side house. I look over at him and he is shaking. 'I can't be here' yeah whatever you baby. Just go wimp. He disappears again and I don't hear anything. I look through the drawers and closet and see all of our old clothes there. Everything is the same as when we were in the dark house. What kind of game is this? I storm out and walk back to the throne room. I throw open the doors and walk in. My eyes widen as I see Dolin and Dee sucking face. Dolin looks uncomfortable but Dee looks right at home on his face. 'WHAT THE HELL!' I jump and let out a quiet yelp. I know right, and here I thought Dol hated physical contact. Whatever he is a habitual liar.

"What are you doing here Paranoia?" Dee says while smirking.

"Oh don't let me stop you, I was enjoying the little show"Dolin looks so uncomfortable right now. It takes all of the self control that I don't have to not laugh at his awkwardness. 'I'M KILLING HIM' who Dee or Dolin. 'I don't know yet' ok have fun. 'Nope we are not leaving it at that let me take over I am going to give them a piece of my mind' I thought that you were done with the whole existing thing. 'I have a new reason to live' what? 'Killing them' sounds legit, let's go.

"My co host is back by the way" dolin's face lights up and he smiles softly.

"He also only came back because he wants to kill you, I have no objections to that so let's get started" dolin's face goes back to being emotionless. Dee's eyes light up. He doesn't even give me a chance to react before he snaps. I get teleported away to what no doubt is the dungeon. SHIT! 'Chill out' I bang on the bars. Ok need I need a nap you taking over 'what?' I take that as my cue to leave. I switch spots with him. I watch as he sinks down against the wall. Still refusing to cry even after all this time. He just sits there with his head on his knees. This kid is going to be the death of me.

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I love paranoia's pov so much. He is so fun to write, he is just pure fucking sass and crazy.
Word count 1332
-Alec