DEAR JOURNAL

YEAR TEN PT 3

TW-harsh language
Song: Rewrite the stars-Greatest Showman
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Thank y'all so much
-Alec
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Virgil's pov

Present day

Dear journal,

Paranoia is an insufferable thing that is better off in control. I hate him but he is great when everything becomes too much. But he switches with me at the worst time. This is no mistake he is just too scared to deal with things head on. I probably shouldn't talk. I don't even know how I did what I did. I just got really upset and thought about not existing anymore and then they couldn't see or hear me. Not like I tried to say or do anything to make them see me, Whatever. All I really want to do right now is kill him. Who though? Not Dolin but he hurt me more then Dee did to be honest. He toyed with my emotions like a puppet master.

I get snapped out of my thoughts when I hear footsteps approach me. Dolin walks in front of the cells. I can't even bring myself to look at him.

"V? Is that you" he asks while crouching down on the other side of the bars next to me. I don't give him any response.

"I'm guessing from the cold shoulder it is you" I still give him no response. I just stand up and move away to the far back wall.

"Can you please talk to me" he says while looking at me with puppy dog eyes. This snaps something in me.

"Why should I" I still sound like Paranoia and I didn't want to talk to him. I thought Paranoia was sleeping in the corner of the cell but he must be faking. Ughhhhhh I hate him so much. Do you though~~

"V I am so sorry I never meant for any of this to happen" he says, his voice cracking.

"Then why did you go with him in the first place?" I say while standing up and moving closer to him. He stands up so he is taller than me. I have to look up in order to see his face.

"I didn't have a choice"

"Yes you did, you could've chosen to not be evil! We were happy. You could've said no" I say while gazing up at him. My eyes are filled with tears at this point but I blink them back.

"I'm sorry, I didn't have a choice he would've hurt you if I didn't go"

"Stop making excuses, you know none of the others would have let anything happen to me. You could've told us" he hangs his head in shame. Ok I'm done watching I'm gonna but in. I thought that you wanted to kill him 'I don't want to kill anyone I was just really mad in the moment' oh yeah and what if you're fighting and are really mad what will you do then? 'I'm ignoring you now' you're just doing that 'cause I'm right I snap my head to where Par is sitting in the corner and glare at him. Dolin signs.

"Paranoia can you let us talk please" he says while looking around the cell. Yeah yeah whatever I'm out, peace. He gives the peace out sign and closes his eyes.

"He's gone, thanks " I grumble.

"No problem"Dolin places his hand on the bar, I put my hand over it.

"I know that you have no reason to forgive me, I have done nothing to prove that you can trust me but I love you, I want you to know that" he says while his voice cracks.

"You sang to me when I left, now I want to sing to you to convince you to stay, to join us in taking over" he says, he snaps his fingers and a guitar appears.

DOLIN:You know I want you, It's not a secret I try to hide, I know you want me, So don't keep saying our hands are tied

I start to speak up to say something but he presses his finger to my mouth.

DOLIN:You claim it's not in the cards, And fate is pulling you miles away, And out of reach from me, But you're here in my heart, So who can stop me if I decide, That you're my destiny?

Boy this man is singing to you my ship is canon. If I'm in control though we are gonna have some boundaries because I may or may not like someone else 'Whooo' no telling now shut the fuck up

DOLIN:What if we rewrite the stars?, Say you were made to be mine, Nothing could keep us apart, You'd be the one I was meant to find, It's up to you, and it's up to me, No one can say what we get to be, So why don't we rewrite the stars, Maybe the world could be ours, Tonight

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG THIS IS ADORABLE!!! 'Shut up!!' OMG 'SHUT UP!' OMGGGGGGGG 'SHUT UPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!'

VIRGIL:You think it's easy, You think I don't want to run to you, But there are mountains, And there are doors that we can't walk through, I know you're wondering why, Because we're able to be, Just you and me, Within these walls, But when we go outside, You're gonna wake up and see that it was hopeless after all

Boy have you lost your damn mind 'cause I'll help you find it. 'Paranoia?' Yeah? 'Shut. The. Fuck. Up.'

VIRGIL:No one can rewrite the stars, How can you say you'll be mine?, Everything keeps us apart, And I'm not the one you were meant to find, It's not up to you, it's not up to me, When everyone tells us what we can be, How can we rewrite the stars?, Say that the world can be ours, Tonight

BOTH:All I want is to fly with you, All I want is to fall with you, So just give me all of you

VIRGIL:It feels impossible

DOLIN:It's not impossible

VIRGIL:Is it impossible?

BOTH:Say that it's possible

Damn if you don't join him after this I'm kicking your ass 'wouldn't that just mean kicking your own ass' whatever

BOTH:How do we rewrite the stars?, Say you were made to be mine?, Nothing can keep us apart, Cause you are the one I was meant to find, It's up to you, and it's up to me, No one can say what we get to be, And why don't we rewrite the stars?, Changing the world to be ours

'I can't join him, I can't do that to Roman' whoa where did the whole Roman thing come from? 'I don't know, fuck off'

VIRGIL:You know I want you, It's not a secret I try to hide, But I can't have you, We're bound to break and, My hands are tied

The music cuts out and the guitar disappears.

"V please just join up with us. I'll make it so you won't have to hurt anyone. I just want to be allowed to love you" he says with a tear falling down his cheek. Fucking do it. 'Ok'

"I choose you, every time I'll choose you" I say. He snaps his fingers and the bars disappear. He pulls me in close and places his lips on mine. I put my hands on his cheeks and he puts his on my waist. We pull apart just in time to see the light sides watching us. Let me out I wanna rumble. 'Ok'

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That was adorableeeeeeeeee thank you Liz for the wonderful idea to have the sides sing.

"I WANNA KICK SOME ASS LETS GO TO THE NEXT CHAPTER!!!!!"

What the hell are we gonna do with you

-Alec