DEAR JOURNAL

YEAR SIX

Major TW- blood, gore, panic attack, death, sad Patton
Sorry ahead of time
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One year later 4 years before present day

Dear journal,

I have been living with Remy for a year now. I have discovered three things about him.

Number 1: coffee addiction, if he hasn't drank his morning coffee yet and you try to interact with him, he is as bad a Remus

Number 2: his favorite words are 'free' and 'Starbucks' those words kind of backfired on him once when Roman came up with the sentence 'free Starbucks is cancelled' this sent remy into a fiery rage and Roman hasn't been over since.

Number 3: his weird sleep schedule. He goes to bed at 3am then isn't up again until 12. I'm not really one to talk though I normally go to bed at 4am and get up at 6am.

I don't really do sleep anymore. Whenever I sleep I am plagued by horrible nightmares about my old life in the dark side house and him. I quickly push the thought away and focus on other things. According to Remy I have been alive for 6 years. I am as Roman likes to say a 'emo-nightmare' I don't know what a 'emo' is but I have learned to accept the random nicknames princy comes up with. Patton and Logan vist me too. Patton mostly bakes. Logan makes sure Patton doesn't burn down Remy's house. I haven't seen Dolin at all, I really really like him and I am worried about him. Logan says that I am being unreasonable and the Dolin is perfectly safe, but I have this gut feeling that something is going to go wrong at any moment.

I hear Remy coming down the stairs and I get pulled away from my thoughts. He hasn't had his coffee yet so I ignore him. Today is what they are calling my birthday. I only really know that it is when people get together, eat cake, and give gifts. I am 6 years old today, mentally, physically we are all the same age as Thomas I don't see when age matters all it means is that you're one year closer to dying. It just makes you aware of the passage of time. I have had enough free time to last me the rest of my life. Sure it wasn't 'free' so to speak but I have read every single book in Thomas' memory. When I brought this up with the others it sent Logan into an existential crisis.

"How is that even possible, I have been around since thomas was three years old and I have barely even skimmed the surface of his memory's library" Logan said as his eyes went wide in utter terror. I still wave that little fact above his head to this day and it was months ago. I chuckle at the thought of him being so upset that I have read more than him.

"What's so funny babes" Remy asked as he sat down in the chair across from my spot on the couch. He calls everyone 'babes' but it just makes me uncomfortable. Don't get me wrong, Remy is like a brother to me but his nicknames don't have the same effect romans do.

"Just writing about something funny" I say as I set my journal down on the coffee table in the middle of the living room.

"The light sides should be getting here in about an hour," Remy says as he goes to refill his coffee mug.

"Do you think Dolin is going to be with them"I ask softly.

"What was that?" remy yells from the other room

"Nothing!" I still feel a little silly about my crush on Dolin. I am genuinely worried about him though. I haven't seen him since a couple of days before Roman got me out.

All of a sudden there is a bright light. Then a man appears in our living room.

"Roman?"I ask as the light fades away. Normally if it is Roman teleporting the light is red. If it is Patton light blue, Logan has indigo. But this time the light was a very faint indigo. Like all of logan's colors faded away. Once the light is clear I see Roman laying down passed out on the coffee table with his white suit torn in some places. Patton is on the floor passed out. Remy comes running into the room with Logan right behind him. Logan must have arrived in the kitchen. He runs straight to Patton and lifts him up bridal style. I move from my spot on the couch so Logan can set Patton down on it. I see a circle of red bleeding through Logan's shirt.