Reminiscing The Blueprints (COMPLETED)

Chapter 18-Ending?

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Mabilis na lumipas ang oras. Bawat segundo, minuto, oras at araw na lumilipas ay parang pinapaalalahanan ako na katupasan naming dalawa. The end is near for the both of us. It's hard to accept the fact that this isn't even considered a choice.

Dahil simula pa noong una, planado na niya ang paghihiwalay namin.

I should in fact be happy but I couldn't help but to burst into tears whenever that idea came across my mind. Ang mas masakit pa nito, kahit anong pilit kong ipagpatuloy...

Alam kong kahit siya mismo, gusto nang makawala sa kadenang nakatali sa aming dalawa.

I did succeed in being the highest despite of the failures I got because of the late submission of my requirements. Pagod na pagod akong habulin ang oras.

May mga pagkakataong hindi ko na rin alam kung ano ang uunahin ko. Iyong pagkamit ko ba sa pangarap ng tatay ko o 'yung itinakdang oras para sa 'ming dalawa ng lalaking pinakamamahal ko.

Every tick of the clock feels like a warning. Every move feels like a distance. Parang pa-unti-unti ako nitong dinudurog.

I had my speech on the podium but I didn't feel any happiness. Kahit nakita kong ngumiti sa 'kin ang ama ko... bihira mangyari 'yon pero na-realize ko lang,

I may have the medal, the stand, the name of being the Summa Cum Laude but why do I still feel so empty?

Why is there is still a huge amount of space unconsumed inside me?

Para akong aligaga kung mag-isip na sa tuwing hahawakan ko ang kamay ni Dark, iniiwas niya na ito. Pati ang pagyakap ko sa likuran niya, hindi na niya nagugustuhan.

I'd still cook for him despite of his cold treatment towards me pero kulang na 'yung sigla sa mga mata niya tuwing pupuriin niya 'yung niluluto ko.

He didn't attend my graduation and I still I tried my best to understand.

Sabi ko ayos lang dahil maiinip lang siya sa program pero sa kaloob-looban ko, gusto kong magtampo. I wanted to question him so many times.

Why is he killing me unseen?

It's way too deeper than any kind of pain. Ang bawat pag-iwas at pag-ayaw niya sa mga galaw ko ang unti-unting pumapatay sa pag-asang natitira sa 'kin. I was hoping and praying that even if he'll also graduate as the highest, he won't leave me.

I was hoping and yet I just disappointed myself.

I sighed and still forced a smile as I open the door of our condo. "Love, your Summa Cum Laude is home!"

He just glanced at the door and didn't really exerted effort in welcoming me. Biglang napawi 'yung excitement at ngiti ko. Ang akala ko pa naman hindi siya um-attend dahil may paandar siya.

I was expecting for surprises pero ako ata ang na-surprise nang makita ko ang mga alak na nagkalat sa sahig at table. He's a complete mess in the day of his girlfriend's graduation.

Still, I chose to understand.

Ayos lang dahil baka gusto niya lang iinom ang lahat ng stress na dinanas niya sa engineering.

I approached and hugged him pero hindi siya gumalaw. He just simply messed my hair and gave me a bouquet of tulips. I smiled upon receiving it.

"Thank you, Love!" I excitingly said.

"How's the graduation?" he kissed my forehead. He smelled beer but I didn't mind. I just hugged him even before he could get away.

"Ayos lang, ikaw? Ba't ka uminom?" I asked using my sweet voice.