Reminiscing The Blueprints (COMPLETED)

Chapter 19-Parting Ways

Time flies so fast. I can't even imagine na maghiwalay na kami ng nilalang na ito. I smiled while staring at him sleeping on my lap.

"I hope someday, I'll see you holding your blueprints, my love."

I whispered and brushed his hair. Hindi naman siya gising kaya mas ayos na rin siguro 'to. Hindi ko kasi kayang makita siyang namumungay ang mga mata habang nakatingin sa 'kin. "I'll watch you grow from afar."

"Don't hurt her, okay?" I forced a smile. "Smile with her and I'll smile from a distance."

Yes. I remained blind on my remaining days with him. Naisip kong matatapos na rin naman na kami kaya susulitin ko nalang kahit gaano pa kasakit isipin na nagtaksil siya.

He cheated yet I still tried to understand.

Baka kasi kasalanan ko. Baka may pagkukulang ako kaya nagka-gano'n.

I didn't put the blame on him. I took it the other way around because I don't want to get mad at him. Ayokong kamuhian siya.

I will surely miss him. Iyon lang ang sigurado sa libo-libong duda na pinagdaanan ko.

Days with him are a dream come true and I know he will be successful one day. He's going to reach all his dreams at siguro, ngingiti nalang ako mula sa malayo pag dumating ang araw na 'yon.

I'll watch him smile from a distance as I unveil my hidden mask.

Hindi na 'ko magkukunwaring okay lang dahil pwede ko na iiyak lahat. Hindi na 'ko magkukunwaring hindi nasasaktan dahil pwede ko nang isumbat lahat.

The next time I love, I'll make sure that I'll have my right.

Iyon kasi ang wala ako sa naging relasyon namin ni Dark. Yes, I may be his girlfriend pero parang wala pa rin akong karapatan. Parang may kulang pa rin.

I'll watch him grow from my man to everyone's ideal.

He's going to set the bar high soon and how I wish we could stay like this forever, in each other's embrace as we reminisce everything from the very start.

How I wish I can hear his I love you made only for me.

And how I wish he's mine in this lifetime.

Pero mukhang malabo. Kaya kahit masakit, kahit alam kong masasaktan ako, pinili ko pa ring pasukin ang condo.

[Bibisitahin sana kita sa condo niyo pero may nakita akong babae na papasok sa unit niyo. Bilisan mo pero pagdating mo roon, please lang Cassandra, maawa ka sa sarili mo.] Ava said on the other line. [Palayain mo na siya...]

I took a deep breath before even going inside. I kept my shoes outside. Ayokong makagawa ng ingay sa pagkumpirma kung totoo ba 'yung sinasabi ng kaibigan ko.

"Let's do it now please? It won't take a while...." I heard my fiancé's voice from the counter table of our condo.

"Baka makita tayo ng fiancée mo..." napatakip ako sa bibig nang marinig ko ang boses ni Nicole.

I breathe heavily as my heart began to shatter. This scenario is quite familiar.

Pero mas masakit pala 'to dahil fiancé ko na mismo 'yung nasa sitwasyon dati ng ama ko.

Masyado akong namanhid at mas pinili nalang manahimik sa isang sulok para pakinggan ang usapan nila. You can do this, Cassandra.

You can still do it. Don't give up now and be a woman of your own.

I felt my heart terribly beating as I slowly took a step forward. Unti-unti kong sinilip ang ginagawa nila at agad na tumulo ang luha ko sa nakita. "D-Dark..."