i wish i could give up. i want to sleep for the rest of my life & never wake up. every single day already feels the same to me.
so why not just sleep through each day instead? i just don't know what to do, i'm not happy or sad. it's just a weird in betweenness that makes everything feel gross. i'm slowly losing interest in continuing life. i don't see myself doing anything or going anywhere. & you really don't matter until after your dead anyway. it's messed up, but most of the time it's true. so i'm sorry if i give up. i promise i tried. but i don't know how much longer i can hold on.
