The Lights We Cannot See

"Take Me Back"

"Hi! 😁
I just want to start of by saying
thank you for being part of my 2019💕
I am very grateful because you came
into my life. And without you, I wouldn't
be the me I am now. I really love the way
you would always cheer me up when I am
down, and when you would make me laugh
with very little things😂. You were one of the
people that I really trust the most, I hope you
would trust me the way I trust you💞. I know
sometimes I do make mistakes, I can't always
be perfect, but, if you need someone to open up
to, or if you need a shoulder to cry on, I would
always be here for you️❣ You were always there
for me through ups and downs, and I just want
you to know that I would do the same for you.
I know sometimes I can get a bit annoying and
stubborn😅, but I am only showing those sides of
me to the people I believe that will love me for who
I am. I am someone who is not good at showing what
I am really feeling, and I can't always say how important
you are to me, but I just want you to know that you are
very very important to me, I can't express it, saying it in
person is a really hard step for me, so I really thank you
for understanding me. And if we ever get into a fight, I
just hope that we will listen to each other before making
any conclusions. Thank you for teaching me lessons in
life, and thank you for always being there for me. So I
wish you the best and I hope we stay friends forever️❣️❣"

Do you remember this?...

......

You sent this to me on the 2nd of
January 2020...

I was so shocked and happy when I got
this message of yours...

..because I knew you didn't like revealing
your true feelings...

But for me you did..

You stepped out of your comfort zone..

And I'm happy for you....

......

December 25, 2019 and
January 1, 2019..

was the first time I didn't send you a long message
of how I feel...

I usually send you a message about what I felt
through the year every Christmas Day, and New Year...

I'm sorry, I didn't send you a message...

I was in the midst of piecing myself back together...

I was stuck in the hole where I tried to bury my...

........

....feelings for you.

I was struggling to get out but I couldn't...

....

the pit was so deep that I couldn't get out.

Screaming in pain...

Yet no one can hear me...

Calling out your name...

But you wouldn't look at me...

Everything I decided to do the past year...

I didn't think carefully about the consequences that
would follow me to my grave...

I was focused on burying what I truly felt..

...but instead,

........

I didn't know that burying my feelings would
result on losing you...

I'd do anything....

just please...

......

take me back...

..to the time...

when our story...

was like a movie....

I'm sorry,
I miss you,
I miss us...

.........

Take me back to the time...

.......When we were happy.