[ gamer imagines ]

i loved you first ~ [ jschlatt ]

[ this is my first song chapter, let me know if you want to see more of these ! ]

[ i loved you first - joan ] [ bold - lyrics, normal - your pov ]

[ takes place after the love or host schlatt did earlier today - 08.27.2020 - ]

if i could be honest

i feel like i'm losing you

do you even notice? yeah

how perfect i am for you

you and i are the best of friends. we've been by each other's side ever since high school. we always stayed together, even when we both met all of our amazing friends like carson or wilbur and the rest of the gang. we never went through a day without talking to each other. even if we didn't much on a day, we would always call each other at night and talk about what happened.

now, after meeting minx and having your whole 'thing' where you both hated each other, i realized that slowly started to lose my time with the you. every night calls turned into weekly ones. even then, the calls wouldn't last very long, for minx always interrupting you with blowing him you with texts or mentions on twitter. sure, i love minx, i think she's amazing; but i just wanted to point out that i want my best friend back. 

i wish i didn't have to call you my best friend as well. my heart raced for you and you only, and i just wished you could see that.

some of our friends realized this as well. after playing games, everyone would leave for the night and sometimes it would just be me and someone else, mostly it would be carson. 

"i see how you've been. wanna talk about it?" i always rant to him about how i just miss talking to you as much as we did before. yes, you and i were still one of the closest duos, but it's been so different lately. they also believe that you and minx should stop whatever bit you too have, and get you to open your eyes and see that you should be talking with me instead. 

would you be honest?

tell me what you see in **her**

does **she** really love you? yeah

like you know that i can, yeah

you're talking to alex now. it's been a while since you guys started talking, and of course it was on love or host. she kicked you off of her show, though something was different. on every show you've ever been on, you chose host. so why on this show, schlatt? why did you choose love? i'm guessing you liked her enough to choose love for the first time in history. but how, why? you haven't even talked for a day, and it seemed like you were head over heels for her. i've known you for more than five years; can't you see that i'm head over heels for you? 

she came back around to be on your show, ending with her winning and choosing love. what if she hurts you? of course, i don't ever want to see you hurting, but i don't think i could even be in the same room as you two. 

does she really like you? does her heart melt when you laugh? does she look deep into your eyes, falling more in love with the way the color shines as the room's light reflects off of it? or do you feel safe in her arms as she tries to comfort you after a rough day? does she make you as happy as i can? 

you keep running away when i need you most

running away when i get too close

my heart is full but yours is running out

i think i'm afraid of what comes next

yeah, i'm afraid you've lost your head

with most chances i have to talk with you, you have to leave; but this time, it isn't because of minx. it's for alex. again, i don't hate minx, not even alex, but i would do anything to have our goodnight calls back. the only times i'm on a call with you now, is when we're playing games with our friends. we're not even alone anymore, there's always friends involved.. and sometimes, she's even there.

i would be lying if i said i moved on. my heart still beats for you and you only. not only do i notice you don't like me the way i like you, but i can see that our friendship is on thin ice. i'm scared of losing you, i want to keep you in my life forever. but if i were to be honest, i don't think you feel the same way about that. many of our friends think you've lost your mind, even lost yourself. they think it's crazy that you and i aren't really a.. well, a you and i ! they also wish for us to go back to how it used to be.. to when there actually was a you and i. 

but now, there's just an alex and schlatt.

baby you know that i loved you first 

but now, you're in love with somebody else

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scoot has something to say: 

i really do feel like i could've done this better, also this was my first song imagine so it was pretty much all over the place. not only that, but it's late in where i am so bruh. sorry i had to make an angst/sad type of chapter, i'm emotional so stfu >:( 

ALSO I DON'T HATE MINX NOR ALEX, I JUST NEEDED TO WRITE THIS AND GET SOMETHING UP AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

anyways, have a good night/day, and remember, i love you all so fucking much <3

[ also it's not even the 27th, it's the next day - it's 4 in the morning - but please don't yell at me, i started writing it after the show ended. okay bye- ]