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crush ~ [ jawsh ]

"alright what now?" travis asks.

travis and i were hanging out at my place. everyone else in the house was either busy doing their own thing or not even in the house itself, so travis decided to come over.

we were currently in my room; my body sprawled on my bed while my head was hanging off ( that sounds so scary now that i put it in words ) and travis was sitting against the bed, head next to mine. we turned off the nintendo switch since we got bored of mario kart.

"well we could watch a movie or something?" i suggest.

"maybe.. hey," travis begins, "how about we just talk? you know, catch up on whatever's going on."

"travis i saw you last week." i laugh.

"exactly!! a week is kinda equivalent to a decade; so much could've happened!!"

"trav, i don't think that's how it works.."

"shush! alright, anything exciting happened?"

i try and think. honestly, the more i thought about it, it just made me realize how lonely i am since i didn't really do anything but stay in and stream. "well, nothing really happened... ALTHOUGH i passed my sub goal of 6,900!! i finally passed the funny number!!" i exclaim.

"HOORAY!!!!" we laugh. "anything else?"

"mhm i don't know. all i can think about is the days i spent talking to josh." i shrug. even though josh and i talk almost everyday, every conversation we have together always seem to be the highlight of the day. they always make me happy and so does he.

"josh, huh?" travis wiggles his eyebrows. 

i roll my eyes, "we're just friends."

"oh come on y/n, even YOU know that was a lie!" i didn't say anything, mostly because i knew it was true. all i do is blush and continue to look up at the ceiling.

"look, don't tell anyone, but if i were to be honest, i like being with josh." i know that sentence doesn't seem like a big deal, but it actually felt so good to say that to someone. it felt like a weight had been taken away from my chest. i smile to myself and travis looks at me, giving me the signal to continue.

"one day, josh and i spent the day together at his house. he was teaching me how to do the tricks he does while speedrunning Mario 64... or at least TRYING to do so. i kept failing and we both thought it was funny."

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"HOW THE HELL DO YOU DO THIS FOR A LIVING?!" i yell in frustration.

"what do you mean?" josh laughs at me.

"HOW CAN YOU MAKE HIM DO THE BOOM AND THE POW AND THE WOW AND THE BLAM?!"

"excuse me?" josh couldn't stop laughing at this point and it seemed as if tears started to form in his eyes.

"UGH!" i put down the controller, "i give up. you do it."

he chuckles, "okay then." josh picks up the controller and throws the bomb as he slides behind the bars, collecting the star as if it was nothing. i stare at him with no emotion. he looks at me and smiles. i break my act, for i couldn't help but smile back.

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"soon after, we decided to chill. we stayed in the same seats as we were before. all we did was chat about many things. 'where did you originally grow up?' 'how's family?' 'anything special planned for the future?'" 

"so basically just chatting about life?" travis questions. 

"along with other topics."

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after much was shared, and there was nothing left and said, josh loaded up Passpartout: The Starving Artist silently as i grabbed a blanket and rested my legs on josh's. surprisingly, he didn't have a problem with it, for he didn't say nor do anything. that was until he softly placed his hand on my ankle. 

i smiled to myself, listening to the lofi music that played in a different tab that josh had. i patiently watched as josh was drawing god knows what on the canvas. i looked at josh, only so see him extremely concentrated in his work. 

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"you should've seen the way his eyes lit up when a color seemed to work out on his painting, travis." i began, "the small smile that was laying on his face was sweet, it made me smile as well. it was contagious, as if what i was seeing made me feel safe."

"you really like him, don't you?" travis finally asked.

i went quiet. "yes," i admitted. "i really do."

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scoot has something [ IMPORTANT ] to say: 

so i was thinking i could make this into a multiple part thing. this was just a little cute part to start it off, so hopefully i'll get the 2nd part up soon so i won't kill you guys. 

also! for those who have requested some ideas: don't worry, i'm not ignoring you! i've seen all of the requests and i'm working on them. i'm sorry they're taking a while to come up, but i want them to be enjoyable for you to read, i hope you can understand!

anyways that's basically all. enjoy this little series, and requests are still coming up!

love you guys <3