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[ requested by @Pawsitivelyevil ]

[ tw // anxiety attacks ]

the room was pitch black. I didn't want to see any light, in fear it'll make things worse. even if the light wasn't on, I still wouldn't be able to see anything due to the way the tears in my eyes made everything blurry.

I didn't know what happened. one minute I was scrolling through social media then the next, I couldn't breathe. I know I saw something that triggered me, but I don't remember what it was exactly. so much was happening in my head that I don't even know if I even saw anything.

the floor was cold. I was already sitting on the floor before I started to freak out so during all of this, I couldn't move. the only movement I made was my body shaking and my fingers running through my hair as the hot tears started to become cold.

then out of nowhere, knocks were heard on my bedroom door, making me yelp in fear. "y/n/n?" it was cooper. I was relieved to know someone I knew was on the other side of that door, even though I completely forgot that I contacted him when the attack started to happen. of course, my voice was shaky and only my sobs were heard over the phone, but cooper knew what was happening. he hung up with an "i'm on my way" and I knew I was going to be okay.

"cooper?" I managed to sob out, though sounding like a question incase my mind was pulling tricks on me and it actually wasn't my best friend. the door immediately opens, cooper quickly sliding across the floor to where I am. he gently grabs my wrists and tries to pry them off of my face, though I refuse to show it. I shake my head, choking up a sob. "hey, it's okay. i'm here now. you don't have to be scared anymore."

I was glad to hear another voice, especially cooper's. his voice was very calming to listen to, in my opinion. even if it wasn't, it still helped to know the fact that my favorite person was sitting right in front of me, trying to help me out of this scary state of mind. i nod, slowly lowering my hands, with the help of cooper of course. he then takes my hands and interlaces our fingers.

"i know you can't speak right now, so we're gonna try to breathe okay?" i hum, telling him that i agree. "look into my eyes and don't look away until i say so. we're gonna breathe in," we both breathe in through our noses slowly, "then out." we slowly breathe out the mouth. we do this for about 10 times before i can feel my heart beating at its normal speed. "better?" i nod. "still no talking?" i shake my head in response.

he lets go of my hands, but pulls me onto his lap, my legs on each side of him. i wrap my arms around cooper, him doing the same. he rubs my back, making me feel calmer each time his hand goes up and down. my face is burried in his neck, that's when i start to feel his skin warm up. the thought of him blushing because of my breathing down his neck makes me smile. cooper feels my smile, which triggers a switch in his brain. he starts rocking back and forth, "WEEEE!!" he knew it would make me laugh at his silliness, and of course, it worked.

cooper pulls back, looking at me. "wanna talk about what happened?" i look at him for a second, but soon shaking my head. "it's okay, you don't have to." he tucks a piece of hair behind my ear, "but just know," he starts to whisper. "i'll be here if you need me." i nod, smiling at the boy. we both stay in this position until we realize how close we are to each other. we both start to blush. before i knew it, he lips landed on mine and my heart skipped many beats. cooper smiles into the kiss as he feels that i kiss back.

we pull away and smile. my head falls on his shoulder, happy of what happened. my eyes feel droopy the longer my head stays in place. the last things i feel is the kiss cooper leaves on my head, and him carrying me to my bed to let me sleep in peace.