Don't leave -Harry Styles fanfic

Chapter 13 (Harry's POV)

You know what it's like to die. That thought raced through my mind, it's all I could think about. I knew she felt that way, but did I really fully understand what that meant. Why I asked myself, why did this beautiful girl think this way.

She had so much going for her why couldnt she see that, she it like I see it in her. She is so good at what she does, I have have seen some of her writings she did for class. "Raven, I know that your going through hell, but I need you to tell me why you think leaving is the answer. You have so much going for you your so beautiful, amazing writer, yeah your mom passed and that sucks, but you need to prove to her that your OK now that you have me and your dad to take care of you." I paused talking in a deep breath before continuing.

"Raven, for some reason I see myself in you, in your eyes the way that they keep people out by showing false emotion. They hide the pain when you don't want to talk about it. They hide things well, but I know that they lie all to well. I know this because I had he same eyes, the ones that made people think that I was happy, that I wasn't hurting myself every night."

"They hide things that hanted my every move, they hide the fact that I was hurt beyond fixing. I want you to find something that makes your eyes brighten, that takes the rain away. But most importantly I want the thing that helps to be me."

I grabbed her hand and looked her in the eyes, "No more hiding your stronger then that, you know that I'm not going anywhere. You have to let me in so you can heal."

"Harry," she said almost too weak to here. "Yes?" I said never breaking eye contact. "You are he thing that pulls me out of the darkness. I don't know if you seen it or what. But the other day, the first day we met." She paused chuckling slightly.

"I came home happy, I know that you don't exactly understand that but I haven't done that in a long time. Harry, you made me feel alive." She said turning her head so it was facing downwards.

I picked her head up with the tip of my finger placed on her gentle soft chin. I don't think that I could feel this way feel like she was the one who was helping me instead of the other way around.

"I'm not leaving do you understand that. I want to be with you. But let's go get you something cute." I got out of the car and walked around to open her door for her. I was going to do anything I could do to get her to fall for me. So she could be mine.

"You know I can get my own door Mr.Styles." she said with a little giggle that was extremely hot. What was I going to do with this one. "Oh well." I said in the same tone.

"Come on," she said "Wait Raven," I said pulling her back toward me and pushing her against the car and kissed her. I pulled away and smiled at her and gave her another small kiss like I had this morning. We walked into the store holding hands, usually I wasn't big for the PDA but I wanted the entire world to see that she was mine. Well she isn't mine at least not yet. 

"Where to first?" I asked whilst playing with her thumb. "Clothes I guess, I don't know about you but im hungry so i'll stop to get something. Do you want anything?" She asked looking up at me. She looked so cute. Like I didn't know it was possible to look that innocent.

"As long as you let me pay." "But Babe, shit I mean Harry!"  She said blushing. I didn't think that hearing that from her would be any different from anyone else. I didn't know why I felt like this with her but I was glad it was her and not someone else.

"You don't have to correct yourself. I mean I plan on makng it official one day. Just can't tell you when." I said smiling at her. I walked over with her to get a pretzal and a slushi. 

"Raven you look fine, don't worry you'll get the job babe. Hey you could get laid in that outfit." I laughed out that last part. "Did you just throw a shirt at me?!" I said acting as if it had hurt my feelings. 

"I don't want to get laid by hopefully my new boss, I want to get a job! What am I going to do with you." She said smiling. "Kiss me." I said without thinking, even though I did mean it. "Come here." I walked over her to like she said. Wrapping my arms around her, I said "Yes?" 

" Your silly." She said laughing. I leaned down and kissed her. That caught her off guard. "Harry!" She said whilst blushing, she look around and her face went white.

"Ed?" She said to some person, I didn't know who they were but to have a react on Raven they had to be someone. "Raven, is that you?" He said. Raven ran over to him and jumped into his arms. "Hi." She said after letting go. "Harry, this is Ed. Ed, Harry. Um me and Ed use to be best friends but his family moved away and we haven't seen each other since now." She said holding out her hand for me to grab it, and I did.

As much as I hated to admit it I liked that she seen Ed today. Maybe it will help, and I know I shouldn't be but I'm kinda jealous. "So your dating finally." Ed asked shocked. "Oh um weren't not dating." She said looking down.

"Not yet, I was getting there." I said smiling at her. "Well its nice to know that you found someone." He paused, "Raven I meant to call and ask if you were free later but since your here now I'll just tell you. I um, I got accepted to UNI. I'm going to go to school with our just liked I promised I would I start wensday." "Ed that's amazing! I'm so proud of you." She squealed.

Raven looked so happy, I wonder why her and Ed never got together. She seems so comfortable around him. I didn't even have her but it felt like part of her had been ripped away from me without as much of an once of effort.  "Harry?"