Don't leave -Harry Styles fanfic

Chapter 8 (Harry' POV)

I replayed those words in my mind for a figment of what seemed like days for me but only seconds for the real word. "I trust you too. Never doubt that Raven." All I really wanted in that moment was too figure her out the energy she gave out was the reason that I on purposely ran into so she would have talked to me. When I look at her all I can see is this fragile little girl this girl who puts this wall between her and the entire world this boundary that is searching for a way out for this release out of this pain this memory that has caused her this pain that haunts her entire life that makes her hide the real beauty. 

"Harry can we watch a different movie I dont want to cry anymore today." She says giving me a smile one that ese the worry for now. "I thought you weren't going to cry, but we can watch anything you want to watch."I said whilst smiling back her hoping to ease her pain. "Even if its ScoobyDoo." "Yes even that." 

We watched scooby for a while, and once it was done we just started talking. "Okay so what your saying is that you would rather go sky diving then hold a spider seriously?!" I said laughing so hard my ribs hurt. "Yes, I seriously cant stand them there so disgusting and just ewwwwww!'' "Okay even about me what are all of your secret talents." "Hmmm well everyone does say I have a charm on all the ladies and I can sing a little." She hit me playfully. She was beautiful on the inside and out. "Well they lied to you." She said laughing like she was the most comfortable person in the world at the moment. "Oi that hurt!!" "So you can sing pretty boy." "A little I am not that good though so if your ears bleed that just tell me." I warned her I really didnt think I was that good. "What would you like too hear." 

Harry singing__----

I pack my bags and say good bye to my life for what seems like the millionth time. 

"Okay thats all I am going to sing because im really awful I know you dont have to tellme." "No honestly I loved it your really amazing. You should let people know about or you can just just keep singing it to me."

 "Deal, now you have classes tomorrow and I do too and even though I would love to stay and talk to you forever but I really need sleep and it's already 11:00pm." I said even though I really didn't want to leave I know I had too I had already pushed her to the limits. And I honestly wanted to go to sleep we both were basically both falling asleep. 

"Okay." She said whilst yawning. "I see you in class ok love, if you need anything just call." I whispered leaving a kiss on her head laying her in her bed. "I trust you too, goodnight." 

I walked out of the room turning the light off so she can be more peaceful. Honestly I can't believe she told me any of this tonight. I am so glad that she did though I want her to be able to be herself and finally open up again to not only me but to the world too. I wished that she would have never had to go though what she had to. I dont want anyone to feel like that. Honestly if I could take the pain away for her I would and thats what im going to do. 

                                                            the next morning (Raven's POV)

I awoke to my lovely ear piercing alarm clock going off "UGH!!" I hate morning's but for some reason this morning seemed a little better than the last, and at that moment I remember me and Harry together last night. That put a smile on my face. I walked out to the bathrooms and took a quick shower and changed my clothes. Bella had already left she left me a note saying-

"HEY Raven sorry to leave so went to go get breakfast with Liam See you later chika!!!!!! -Bella 

I grabbed my phone and shot Harry a message. 

>>> to Harry;)<<<<

-Hey im leaving now where you at???

I waited for him to message back as I walked to go buy some coffee at this really good place that Bella had showed me.

>>>>To Harry<<<<
Behind you I'm getting some coffee :)

I turned around and looked up sure enough he was there. " Hey there Styles." "Hello there lovely!" He smiled at me and went to give me a hug, I really am starting to like how he loves to be in contact with me I never have really liked being touched by anyone. 

"How was your morning" I let  go of him and gave just enough space in between him and me. But not too much, what the duck is wrong with me? "Better now, I just now need my tea but then it's off too class and I will miss you so much." He gave me a poutty face that made me laugh. 

"Oh no my prince I will miss you so much how will I bare without seeing you for a few hours." "I dont know my queen but what I do know is its your turn in line though." "Well that its is, and queen is it I like that. Um can I get a mocha lotte to go please with extra foam please." "That will be 5.00 thank you come again." He handed me my coffee and took Harrys order. "So where is your first class again there love."  "Um This class that i'm not sure what it's called but its some stupid math class ugh I hate math!" "Take it for me please Harry I will be enternally gratefull.'' "If I could I would and you know that but just think you'll get to seem in your creative writing class and that's your last one so perk up ok love I will see you soon!" "Fine but I want a hug." I said pouting I really did hate math I was good all I passed but I still hated it. 

My classes before now were went by in a blur and now here I am waiting for creative writing to start I grabbed a seat in the front of the class as Harry sat beside me. "Psst Raven what are you doing after class psst answer me dont ignore my love." He said making us both crack the fuck up. "Well if you must now I planned on going back to my dorm and do these book reports and stuff so I can get ahead and then I was going to call my dad." I said giggling 

"Wanna go to a party with me tonight so you can be monitered so you dont get out of control with your plans." He said giving me a smile. "I dont know Harry it's been a long time since I have really went out."  "Please I promise it will be fun please." "Will there be alchool at this lovely place?" "Yes love why is that a problem." He said in a teasing tone. "Not at all, I'll go" Yes! I heard him say more to him self then to me. 

All right everyone my name is Vincent dont call me by my last name or add prefesser i'm not that old. He said cracking a smile. "Now I am very different from every other person that teaches. I grade on what I think not by the books. I believe creative writing is what comes from your personal memories or judgement and thats what I want to see in your writings" What the fuck where is he going with this. "So for today I want you to write in your notebooks about opening one's self." "You can go now or write it now in here ill be at my desk if you need me dont need me and remember dont think to much about this."

I look at Harry and say "He is fucking crazy what the hell!" "I think this class will be fun." "You would wouldnt you" I said and then turned to my notebook.

(Author's note really quick- so im going to write some of her notebook things here but not always so I may or may not make a little spin off thing for the entrys tell me what you think about it."

Opening One'sSelf-

The first time you open to the world sometimes you see the beauty but in my case I see all the flaws the things make people believe that its not worth it. Taking the time in the first place to open up is hard enough but when you have to do it again because of something that was so bad that it made this wall this barrier in between you and the entire world between you and other's even if they mean the world to you the one's that were the clossest to you but this things can just easily push them away without even but a struggle. You spend more than half of your life trying to find yourself and then something like a small memory has pushed all that finding away pushed who you really are into a hole that is impossible to climb out of. Is it even worth trying to find you again after losing yourself once? I hope so.

"Raven you ready to go I can drop you off and I will message you later when im ready to go to the party or I can just drive by when I am ready?"