Don't leave -Harry Styles fanfic

Chapter 6

Authors note really quick... Hello everybody I hope you like the story so far. And I just wanted I say that to you should vote for my story and that I'm sorry for such the late update and I love you bunches xoxo

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I walked into the bathroom not ready to face what would happen today not ready to know the consequences that were bound to follow me with meeting Harry. I had a wonderful time but most importantly I was scared to death of him finding out who I was and the things I have been through him knowing that person that I had locked away from everyone my entire life.

I opened my bag grabbed my makeup and did all that bologna. After I was done with that I saw that little razor that followed me everywhere. It was like fighting with an inside force that you knew wouldn't win. The voices were back Harry and them dull. Why can't they just leave what the fuvk did I do to deserve this there are things in my life that I can't stand to come to an agreement with and this is one of them I don't understand why my life has to so fucked up I lost my mom wasn't that enough didn't I go through enough pain. I can't look most people in the eye I can't bring myself to be the writer I want to be because I think what if someone doesn't like me why happens when my book isn't good. Or what if somebody tries to steal it.

I miss being me back when I was free and still undisturbed my moms death didn't just kill her it killed a large part of me.

I picked the little razor blade up and made 1 cut then another and another. I cut until I made both arms go numb wishing that I could make the pain in my heart and mind go away stop it numb it let me forget that.

Harry was the first person to make the pain ease even in the slightest it scared me that he could do that.

I cleaned my arms. And put some makeup on. I picked my up my phone and called him.

"Hello?"

"Hey Harry"

" Is everything ok. You don't sound ok."

"Yeah I just woke up so I'm still tired but hey I was wandering maybe if you want after classes that we could watch a movie in my dorm Bella won't be here so i'll get bored."

"Of course and I'll come to take you to class be there in like 5-10 minutes depending if I get us coffee." "Alright thanks Haz. Bye" "Bye love" he said and then I hung up.

Was I really ready to face him again like what the fuck am I seriously going to do how am I going to move on from Harry I don't want to let him in I'm just do fucking tired seriously I really don't want to stay here