Dangerously in Love

Almost

At 10:59 PM, he finally replied. 

"I really don't know how else you want me to explain my self. I swear I really don't know. Whatever you are about to do now is something you could have done a long time ago. It's not that you were not aware, I kept picking on them but you never listened. Now I'm fed up with all of this, you suddenly trust me. You then suddenly feel you could change, you then suddenly know that things could work out. That's not how things work. Why didn't you put this effort days back, weeks back, or even months back? Now I'm done with this, you then suddenly know all your wrongs and then promise to work on them. That's very petty. I thought over all of this. Really not making any sense, dear. Because I know how many times I kept on pleading with you, to let go of all those things. I don't just know how best to put this to you." 

She was speechless, like don't know what to say or do. After a thought, she finally replied, "I heard you and see you loud and clear but I don't want to let you go. I've always been working progress throughout my life like, babe, I'm not perfect. Nobody is. And it just happens that my flawed is stressing you and you had enough with it. You just don't see that I'm changing since day one and learning to trust you on it. I don't discuss anymore about us to others, that I follow whatever you are saying but you don't see this, you just see things from one side view which is my text and my novel. It's a novel, I added up things." 

He responded, " My dear, I'm not talking because of your novel or anything. See, I'm putting up what exactly is happening in this relationship to you. I did not read to know you. I have also been in this relationship as well. To put things clear to you, if you have not noticed before you make a change whatsoever or even listen to whatever I say, it's only when you have seen that I am getting mad over it or see that I'm angry about that particular thing, that's the only time you take what I say seriously. That's very stupid and childish because I can't keep up with that. It must turn out to a fight before you do what I say or before you understand clearly what on a normal day you meant to accept and understand. You always want to make a big deal out of it before you take it seriously. See, I'm not in for all of that. There are better things to be done than sitting and correcting and scolding you zillion times. You're not a kid. Yes, nobody is perfect but there are some things as an adult you should be able to handle and understand. Because you're not a kid. For God sake, you are at the pick of getting married! How long do you think you would keep picking things like a kid? You're fucking 31! Not 17! Behave and act like one. Things you do is because you want to do them because if you were a child, I'm sure that child must have learnt a big lesson all this while, but you, you just don't want to move past that. Now, that things got gone so bad for me, you suddenly want to make things better and best. Doesn't work that way."

She doesn't know how to respond and react to this. She wants the best out of him and still wants to be with him. 

"I don't know what to say... other than, I'm learning each day to be better and I always do that in my life even before you came. That's how I function with things. Maybe it's not up to your par but that's how I am. Each day, I'm learning how to be better at my self." 

Two minutes later, he coldly replied, "Ok." 

She added, "I always want to be better and best for us, for u, and for me. I've changed little by little. It's always working progress with me. Now, what do you want me to do? What do you want us to do?" ..... 

No reply from him. 

She refers to her conversation before from 'I don't know what to say', "If you think this is not mature or childish then I don't know." 

He just replied to her, "Really don't have anything to say to you, to be honest." 

She responded, "I see. So we're just hanging there then?"