Unfortunately Fated

Chapter 9

Jonathan

     Caleb and I had slept together last night. And it was nice but it wasn't how I expected my first time with a guy to go. He was nice and he was sweet but it just wasn't with the boy I wanted. It helped me forget just for a moment but I felt slightly worse afterward. I just felt bland and alone. He left around 4 am last night, and left me a little note. I got up and went to take a shower to wash off last night's events. I'd been wearing sweats a lot lately and I decided to put actual clothes on. I put on a pair of light wash skinny jeans and a light blue and cream sweater. I styled my hair and decided to wear my glasses today. I put on some white vans and grabbed my bag and a granola bar and went to my car. It probably wasn't the best idea to party on a school night but this is the one week my parents aren't home and I am going to use all of it.

     I went and picked up Taylor like normal and when I got her she looked just like Caleb. Covered in hickies. "Fun night with your mate?" I teased at her. "I tried covering it up, does the turtleneck not help?" She asked me looking in the overhead mirror. "Put your hair down and it will help cover it some more." She did what I said and it helped cover the ones that the turtleneck didn't cover. "You and Caleb have a good night?" She asked and raised an eyebrow at me. "It was alright. We hooked up. Nothing serious." I shrugged at her. "You wished it was you and Maxwell..." I just nodded and she sighed. "You should tell him how you feel." I rolled my eyes, of course, she would say that. "He doesn't care." We pulled into the parking lot and just sat in the car. "He does, I know he does. You just have to tell him and--" I cut her off. "We are gonna be late for class." I got out of the car quickly and basically ran inside the school. I just felt so alone, and since my parents are going to be back tomorrow morning my life is going to go back to normal, which is training day in and day out for a job that I don't even want.

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      I was walking to the locker room and I saw Maxwell walk out of the coach's office, without his crutches. That's when I realized that he was at the party last night without his crutches too. I was going to try and ignore him but the mate pull was too much and I had to go to him. "Where the hell are your crutches?" I yelled as I walked over to him, looking to see if he was limping in any way. "Jonathan, I'm fine." He rolled his eyes at me but that's when I saw him limping and wincing in pain. "No, you're not. Your limping. What was the point of coming to the hospital if you weren't going to listen to the doctor." I crossed my arms. "I'm a lycan and a delta. I heal way faster than even the average lycan." I just scoffed at him and was about to walk away. "Jonathan." I stopped walking and turned to him. "I need your help," I smirked and walked over him and put his arm around my neck.

     The electricity was intense and heavy, just from the touch. Maxwell slowly stood up and of course, the one inch made me feel insanely smaller than him. His usual bright green eyes were dull. "Are you okay?" I whispered to him. His eyes immediately started to water a little bit, I could see the want and desire swirl in his eyes. What he said next surprised the hell out of me. "No." That one word leaked out so many emotions and feelings that I didn't know he was feeling. I started to feel sick to my stomach and guilty for my night with Caleb. "You slept with him didn't you?" His voice cracked and he said it in such a soft whisper. I couldn't speak and I just nodded and turned away from his eyes and started walking to the locker room with him hanging on my arm. "I'm sorry." He said breaking the silence. "For what?" I asked him. "For being dumb." I just nodded and continued walking. "Jonathan, are you hearing me?" I just sighed and leaned him up against the wall and pulled myself away. "What do you want me to say?"

      "I don't know, something, anything." He was searching my face frantically trying to find some type of emotion. "I don't know Max." I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair. "Max? Not Maxwell?" I didn't realize that this entire time of us knowing each other I had only called him by his full name. I just shrugged my shoulders and I saw the hurt flash through his eyes. "I give up. The moon goddess gave me a second chance and yet it somehow screwed me over, again." I took a deep breath and continued talking. "I just want to be happy. I'm not happy. I thought you could be the one thing in my life that could work, but you're not. All I want is to be happy." I leaned on the lockers on the wall across from him, closing my eyes trying to keep the tears from falling. "I want you to be happy. That's all I want." Maxwell said softly to me. "Then just forget about me, Max. Don't apologize, don't try and be my friend. Don't try and do anything unless it's rejecting me or accepting me. Okay?" I said that last part a little to harshly and his eyes widened a little. "Okay." He whispered and looked down at the floor. "Call Adam, have him help you to class." And with that, I walked away.

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Maxwell

      It was later in the evening and I was home. I was in the living room with Augusta and my huge Italian family. It was our family tradition ever since I was born that we have a family dinner every month. I was trying to enjoy my time with them but I couldn't stop thinking about Jonathan. Ever since I met him I can't ever stop thinking about him. Adam wasn't allowed to these family dinners, we had a mate only policy. Which was nice but also reminded me of him not being here with me. "Where is Taylor?" I asked my sister Augusta. "I invited her, but I don't know if she's coming." She said softly, I could see she was slightly hurt. "Why?" I asked her. "Jonathan called her crying. Said that he was losing control again or something. I don't know the specifics." My lycan cried out after she said he was crying. I was probably the one that caused that. "Dolcezza? What's wrong?" My nonna said as she walked over to sit next to me on the couch. "I did something really bad." She grabbed me and pulled me into a hug. My nonna and I were so close I could tell her everything. "Talk to me."

     "I found my mate. But I'm with Adam, and I don't think I can just break up with him. My mate, nonna. He is perfect. So beautiful and so handsome. But he's had a mate before and she died in a car accident. And I made the mistake of not choosing him over Adam. Now he wants me to reject him and I think I've lost him forever." I took a deep breath after my monologue. She grabbed my chin and lifted my face to hers. " I compagni sono un dono della luna. Una rarità che dobbiamo sempre custodire." She gave me a sweet smile. "Mates are a gift from the moon. A rarity we must always treasure." I repeated after her. "And in this case which is very rare, your mate has been given another chance. You. The moon goddess wouldn't have picked you unless she thought you were worthy. And my grandson is the most worthy of them all." She wiped my stray tear away and gave me a reassuring look. "The choice is yours dolcezza. Whether you claim your treasure or settle for a pirate. Now come eat." She was right, it was time that I ended things with Adam. Jonathan was not only what I wanted but what I needed.

     After dinner, I went to the castle and tried to find Adam. He was in the guest room that we had and was sitting on the bed. Adam is smart, and I know he can feel the difference between us and our relationship. He turned and gave me a smile and then a look of confusion. "What's wrong?" He got up and walked over to me and grabbed my hands, but I pulled them away. Ever since meeting Jonathan, I could barely touch him without feeling almost disgusted. Last night when he kissed me in front of Jonathan I saw his heartbreak but what he didn't see was me pull away from him immediately after. "We need to talk." We went and sat at the end of the bed in silence. I was trying to figure out how to say this without being rude.

      "Since being here a lot has changed for me. I finally feel like I am where I belong. And I know we said a lot of things to each other back at the camp. Made a lot of promises, but Adam I don't know if I will be able to make them happen." I took a deep breath and ran my hands through my hair. "What I'm saying is, I found my mate. And I love you Adam, but not in the way you want me to. At least not anymore. I realized I never actually loved anyone up until now. And I want to be with my mate and you should be with yours too. The happiness you feel when you meet them is an unexplainable feeling. I'm sorry it took so long to tell you, I was just trying to fight for us. I guess I just realized I was fighting a losing battle." I waited for him to say something but all there was were tears. "Adam say something please," I begged, but he just got up and started walking but then stopped. He turned around and before I knew what was going on, he punched me. "You're a piece of shit. To think I was going to reject my mate for you. And you wouldn't even do the same for me." He backed away and grabbed his suitcases and started packing his things.

     "Adam." He just lifted his hand up to signal me to shut up. "I never want to see you again." I just sighed and leaned my head back and let him pack in silence. And within 10 minutes he was gone. I grabbed my phone and groaned in pain as I dialed the number. "Hello? Who is this?" Jonathan answered. He didn't know I had his phone number, I got it from Bellamy. "Are you at the hospital?" I asked him, knowing he'll know who I am once I spoke. "What did you do now?"

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