peter parker imagines & oneshots!

| liz allen •°.

warning(s): mentions of an eating disorder, angst, babie mj, and cryiNg

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ah, liz.

the most popular and most admired girl in midtown tech.

cant blame you, though. she is gorgeous, sweet, smart, and everything a perfect girl would be.

but it only hurts because peter parker is head over heels inlove with her.

you've been inlove with him for as long as you can remember. but ever since he had this "crush" on liz, he slowly drifted away from you.

ofcourse, he's your bestfriend, so you never leave his side. even at the cafeteria when him and ned are gushing over liz's outfit while you just wanna puke.

mj noticed you glaring at your food and aggressively, but at the same time subtly, poking it with your fork. "hey, you okay? looks like you wanna murder your salad" she said in her typical sarcastic voice, but with the hint of concern.

she was never really one to make friends, but when she saw how miserable you looked at lunch next to peter and ned, she knew she atleast had to try and be your friend. and now she is.

"yeah, yeah. just kinda lost appetite, now i dont wanna eat." you softly smiled at her, closing your salad plastic container, and throwing it on the trash.

now, her stiff eyes softened with concern as you threw the salad container on the trash. "are you really okay?" she softly held your forearm from across the table as she looked at you with sympathy, "its been weeks since the last time i saw you eat a proper meal. what's going on?"

this statement got the attention of ned, which looked at you, seeing your pale skin and thin arms. "yeah, y/n/n. are you okay?" he asked, which didn't even make peter look at you or even just a glance. no. he was still too focused on daydreaming about the amazing liz allen.

"i'm fine. i'm okay. just- i dont have an appetite, okay?" you raised your voice on the two.

shocked at your own sudden burst, "im sorry- im sorry- i shouldn't-" you sighed "im going to the library, see you guys later" you picked up your bag and walked out of the cafeteria.

and now peter noticed and looked at you walking out, furrowing his brows in confusion. "is y/n okay? why did she leave?" he asked, slight concern on his voice. mj just sighed and looked back at her book, and ned shrugged.

it was now the end of the day. and you were about to head to your locker, when you felt someone tap your shoulder. you turned around, and met the brown eyes of the boy you fell in love with.

only to remember the girl he likes, which displayed a look of pain in your eyes.

"hey, you okay? why'd you walk off at lunch?" he asked, comcerned. you could tell he meant it, so you opened you mouth to speak, but changed your words last minute cause you still didnt want him to know about it.

"yeah, im okay. its nothing, just wanted to study early for the test i had the next period" you have him a smile, that was genuine enough to convince him, but not genuine enough to convince mj or yourself.

this time, it didnt convince him at all.

"you wanna come over later? movie night?" he smiled lightly, waiting for your answer.

you thought for a moment, thinking to say 'no sorry im busy'. but, you did miss you bestfriend, so why not?

"sure." you said, forcing a smile on your lips.

he offered to walk you, since you were having a movie night at his place anyways.

that walk, it felt like nothing has changed. like he hasn't been distant. maybe for him, your friendship never really changed. maybe, only for you.

you talked like how you used to, and it was nice having him back.

once you guys got to his apartment, may greeted you with a big hug. since you haven't visited there in a long time. the last time, was before all the liz thing.

"so, what movie are we watching?" you softly asked, "hmm, how about scorch trials?" he smiled, knowing it's one of your favorite movies. (lmao i picked scorch trials cause if it was death cure, well shit. id be sobbing.)

you got a sudden burst of exitement, as peter pulled up the movie on the tv.

"kids, im going to the grocery to buy some stuff. dont make a mess!" may said, closing the door. knowing her, she probably left to give you both some alone time.

the movie started, and ofcourse you were very invested on it.

after a few minutes, peter got hungry and got some food. chips, and some leftover chinese.

"hey, want some?" he asked, offering the bag of chips. you looked at him, shook your head no, and gulped. as hungry as you were, because you haven't eaten all day except a cup of coffee, you couldn't get yourself to eat because of the voice in your head telling you not to.

he looked at you in confusion. he knows you love chips, so you rejecting his offer is weird. then he finally got a good look at you.

thin arms. your once fitted jeans, now baggy. pale skin. dry, chapped lips.

he stared at you in concern as you tried your hardest to stare at the tv, "are you okay? you look like you havent eaten in days" he asked with an overwhelming amount of worry.

its because i havent you thought, "i'm fine" you sighed, eyes still on the screen of the tv.

he could hear the lie in those two words. "are you really okay? please tell me" he held your arm, so you'd face him. you did, and with a stern look on your face, you said once again "i'm fine".

"y-your not! your not fine! look at you! your as thin as bones, and your so pale! you dont look healthy!" he started tearing up, as you avoided his gaze, "just tell me whats going on! are you eating at all?"

with that statement, you broke down. tears flowed out your eyes like waterfalls, as you clutched your stomach.

"i just- i just wanna be like liz." you cried, the name ringing in peter's ears "i just wanna be like her. skinny, pretty, smart, and perfect."

"you dont have to be like her! your already perfect befo-"

"no im not! if i was, you would've liked me the same way you like her!" you raged at him, cutting of his words. "i like you, okay?! scratch that, i love you! i always have! and whatever i do, i know you'll never like me like you like liz."

he just stared at you, dumbfounded by your confession. you knew it.
he didn't feel the same.

"it-its fine. i understand. um- uh, see you tomorrow" you said, as you picked up your bag and walked out the door.

no, he didn't run after you or call your name. right then and there, you knew for a fact, he didnt love you back.

A/n: yo peeps hi!
hope you guys like this!
angst, sad, imagine. tHE FIRST ONE IS ALREADY SAD IM- WHA- idek
uh, part 2? 👀
-a <3