I run out of the building and across the street. I storm into my apartment, slamming the door behind me. A lamp tips over and breaks all over the floor. I groan in frustration and swing my arm out, knocking over empty boxes that were stacked up. I just wanted to scream.
I couldn't do this. I obviously liked her, alot. But I couldn't hurt her. Every time I became close with someone I ended up hurting them or hurting myself. People hurt and there's no way to stop it or prevent it besides avoiding it.
I flop on my bed and shove my face in my pillow and try to push the night out of my head.
<<J.A. POV>>
I flop on my bed and shove my face in my pillow and try to push the night out of my head. I had been crying ever since Calum left. I didn't understand what I did wrong. He kissed me first. Maybe I'm a bad kisser or something. No... Maybe he just didn't want to ruin or friendship but he wouldn't talk it out with me. Maybe he'll come around tomorrow.
I sniff and roll on my side and look out my window at the skyline once more before closing my eyes and melting into my dreams.I wake up for work, forgetting everything that had happened last night. I roll out of bed and pour myself some coffee then look down to see that I'm still wearing Calums sweat shirt. Crap. That's when reality hit me like a tractor trailer and I slumped in my seat. I pull out my phone and text him.
Can we pls talk? I miss my loner:/
I send the message then begin getting ready for the day. I take a quick shower then change into my work clothes and let my hair dry naturally as I do my makeup. I check my phone every 5 minutes even though my phone was on ringer and vibrate. I knew he was up already, he had to be.
I decide to ignore the situation for the day and head off to work. I keep an eye out for Calum but I don't see him. I didn't see him on the way to work, at work, home from work, nothing.
I try to keep my mind off him but it's not working. I didn't understand, what did I do wrong?
Who kisses someone and then storms off like that? Maybe I'm a bad kisser. I mean it's been awhile but not awhile awhile...
I shake my head in frustration and slam my apartment door shut behind me. It had been a long day at work of co-workers avoiding me and thinking about what happened with Calum and replaying it in my head.
I decide to order a pizza for myself so I call the number and sit on my couch and turn on "Friends" as I wait for my pizza. After the first episode is almost over theres a knock on my door and I open it to see the pizza guy standing there.
"Oh my goodness! It smells great thanks so much!" I say opening the box to take a whiff as I walk into the kitchen to get my money that I owed.
I look at the red circles of meat that dotted the slices and turn back towards the guy who gave it to me.
"This is pepperoni, I ordered a Hawaiian?" I say.
The guy groans and scratches the back of his head.
"I knew I got the buildings mixed up!" He said frustrated.
"Do you remember which door number for the other building?" I ask, hopeful.
"Yeah, 312." He replies shaking his head again.
A smile tugs at my face.
"312? Oh I know him, if you pay me for the pizza I can just take it over for him, it'll save you the trouble." I say with a smile.
He looks at me suspiciously then nods in agreement. I pay him for the pizza and thank him and run across the street.There I was. In front of his door. I was crazy scared of what he would say to me. Maybe he would kiss me again. I just had a gut feeling he would forgive me for whatever I'd done and things would go back to being the same.
I give a firm knock on the door and take a step back.
"Who is it?" I hear Calum yell from the other side of the door.
I make my voice deep and give a grunt.
"Pizza delivery." I say and step to the side of the door so he couldn't see me from the peep hole.
The door swings open and there stands a matted haired, hoodie wearing, worn out looking Calum Hood.
I hold out the pizza.
"Hi..." I say.
He gives me a blank and tired expression for a second before reaching out to take the pizza from me.
"The guy got our buildings confused I just thought I-" I begin to explain when he slams the door in my face.
The tip of my nose grazes the ugly wooden door.
I hold back my tears and pound on the door.
"CALUM! you can't lock me out of you life forever!" I scream with my forehead against the door.
I turn the knob and open his door.
He looks like a deer in headlights looking up at me as he takes a bite of his pepperoni pizza.
I begin to ramble.
"Calum! Calum please, please, I'm sorry for whatever I did I didn't mean to do anything to hurt you or anything and if you want to stay friends I can stay friends that's cool I can do that and-"
Calum walks over to me and I give a small smile.
Before I can comprehend what he's doing, he picks me up and practically swings me over his shoulder.
"Calum? Calum what are you doing? PUT ME DOWN!" I scream and slap my fist again his back.
"PLEASE DON'T CALUM WE NEED TO TALK! STOP!" I screech before he sets me on the ground infront of his door, shutting and locking it before I could get up.
I stand up and wipe my tears.
"Fine, you don't wanna talk? I'll do the talking." I say. And put my forehead against the door.
"Calum. You're my one and only friend. I trusted you with so much. I told you everything and this is how you repay me? By... By being so nice to me and getting me to trust you and telling me I look pretty and then kissing me? And here I am acting like a fool, yelling at a door trying to get you to forgive me for whatever made you angry and upset last night. But I will stand outside this door all night if I have to because that's what a real friend would do."
I get everything out before I sit on the ground and break down in tears.
<<C.H. POV>>
There's finally a break in her crying. I sit against the door eating my pizza that she brought me and just listening. I'm not even sure why. I just sit and listen.
"Cal... I can hear you chewing..." She says softly from the other side of the door giving a small laugh and a sniff.
I give a slight smile and lean back against the door again before I don't hear her anymore.
She left.
I move myself onto the couch and fall asleep, wondering if Julia was actually worth all of this because I honestly had no idea what I was doing with myself.---------------------------------------------
Well hey there wattpad, havent hung out with you in awhile....
How is everyone??? How's the new year???
This chapter basically reminds me of frozen after re-reading it like... Idrk so I'll let you figure it out
Have you read "keeping afloat" yet? It's a teen fiction story but I really like what I have planned for it so please go read it! :)
Thanks for hanging in there
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Loner City // a.u Calum Hood
Fanfiction[completed but spelling, grammar and slight edits in progress] in which a girl who wants to please the world and not feel so alone meets a boy who pushes the world away and thinks it's better off to be alone